Roxana Zerni UNSPLASHMy depression is glad that I am sad and not happier.It gets to think that it is doing its job. Sewing seeds of doubt in myself and my actions is a key part of its MO. Once my depression gets me second-guessing myself, the journey down the rabbit hole has begun. This will lead to me being up against the wall with no discernable way forward.And it doesn’t … [Read more...] about My Depression Says The Holidays Are Here, So Why Am I Not Happier?
Archives for December 2024
What Makes Me Choose to Live with Depression?
Photo by Marten Bjork on UnsplashChoosing not to live with depression is, for me, choosing suicide.Because of my family history, I see that I either learn to face depression and live with it, or check out. And my one instance of contemplating checking out occurred almost 50 years ago. Since then, I have understood that I am more afraid of death than I am of living with … [Read more...] about What Makes Me Choose to Live with Depression?
What Do I Want?
Photo by Vadim Bogulov on UnsplashIs it something I can share, or is it more esoteric?Will I write about it or spend a page or more avoiding talking about "what do I want?" Sometimes I need to warm up my brain before I can open up about what I actually decided to write about. Ok, it’s most of the time. I almost always seem to ramble on about something, pulling out details in an … [Read more...] about What Do I Want?
There’s Just a Lot Going On, So OK May Be Enough – PART TWO
Scroll down to read the rest of the story...I am amazed at the changes the last month has brought.I had just returned from trekking in the Grand Canyon a month ago. Things were stable with family, and I had just booked a flight up north for Thanksgiving. Work was good, and I was getting to use the wood stove some mornings to take the chill out of the living room.And then stuff … [Read more...] about There’s Just a Lot Going On, So OK May Be Enough – PART TWO
