 I don’t expect the answer to arrive all at once. I’m learning that understanding often comes in slowly, like light leaking through the blinds at sunrise. Subtle, almost imperceptible at first, until suddenly everything is illuminated, and you can see what’s been there all along. That’s what … [Read more...] about My Life Is Going Sideways, Part Two
Archives for June 2025
Is the Question What Comes Next?
It feels like I know what the honest answer is. Yet I cannot bring myself to say the words. Saying it should be easy, as it is something about my future. So far, all I have is a list of things I don’t want. For one thing, I know that I don’t want to be taken advantage of. All of my life, I have said yes to others’ needs, often at the expense of myself. I am finally, after … [Read more...] about Is the Question What Comes Next?
Why I Am Unpacking the Rules Behind My Perfectly Concealed Depression
What does it mean to be “perfectly” depressed? The phrase itself feels like a contradiction. Depression, after all, is often portrayed as something visible—tears, disheveled hair, darkened rooms, canceled plans. But what if it could be hidden in plain sight? Behind a polished exterior, behind excellence and achievement, behind the kind of life that others envy? This is the … [Read more...] about Why I Am Unpacking the Rules Behind My Perfectly Concealed Depression
Why My Life Is Going Sideways
Photo by Alex Gray on Unsplash It’s a strange feeling—when life isn’t falling apart, exactly, but it also isn’t moving forward. Sideways is the best word I can think of for it. I’m not plummeting into crisis, but I’m not climbing toward anything either. It’s like being stuck on a moving sidewalk that keeps looping in place—motion without direction. I look around and … [Read more...] about Why My Life Is Going Sideways
