For the past two hours, I have been me. Not super happy or sad, just me. How is this possible? My depression had been keeping me from myself. The Prozac must have reached a saturation point in my system. Or the hand of fate moved it to the side. Or my decision this morning to block out chunks of time for my depression, and chunks of time to work, is working. “Who the hell … [Read more...] about How Did This Happen? I’m Me!
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No chunks. It’s everything, all the time.
My plan for the week is to break my thoughts into chunks. There will be a chunk for the depression. Then there is a chunk for self-care. I wish I could report that I am doing a wonderful job with the self-care piece of my recovery, but it hasn’t been as simple as I thought it would be. Getting out of my own head for a few minutes has been a challenge. The thoughts just … [Read more...] about No chunks. It’s everything, all the time.
Waking Up Depressed
This morning, I am having trouble getting the day started. I had trouble even making up my mind to get out of bed. It was already after 7 AM, and I am usually up and going by then. To help me decide whether to stay in bed or get up, I found myself recounting a rhyme I learned as a child. I-lit-a-match-and-it-went-out. The problem with this was, I couldn’t decide if “out” … [Read more...] about Waking Up Depressed
Why am I a Whirling Dervish?
Today I have all of these random thoughts swirling around in my head. Will writing them down calm them? Let's try. I’ve got to have this figured out RIGHT NOW. It’s not ok for me to not already have a plan in place. This is not normal for me and is very uncomfortable. It is causing me to be anxious. That anxiousness is clouding my judgment and is keeping me … [Read more...] about Why am I a Whirling Dervish?