Am I seeing the future clearly?

Today I am thinking I can work again.

Not that I havent been, but the pace and intensity I feel just ratcheted up a notch. This is only the second day since I was in the hospital for depression that I have felt like I could really get back into my business.

The crazy thing is I am not reinventing the wheel. Everything I outlined to start doing again in my business this morning is ideas I have worked on before. The difference this morning is I am also thinking about other points of view.

Is what I am thinking about doing in my business accurate? What other alternatives do I have? Is this a knee-jerk reaction to spending weeks not being able to work at my best?

Is re-focusing on my business the best course of action?

Will it drain my energy, or can I find ways to build up my reserves of positive feelings? Im even thinking about who I can talk to about this to validate or refute my plan. That is way different than being up against the wall.

It feels like I am using the tools I have been given. It feels like I am beginning to build a structure that will help me make better decisions in the future. It feels like I have a path forward.

Can I create a structure for my days that will be satisfying? Or am I setting myself up for more problems? Is this a trap, or is it a real plan? Just being able to think about all the possibilities of what might occur is freeing.

Before I would maximize my idea, and minimize any idea that did not support my single, depression guided, idea. Being new to this approach, I am not sure if I am doing this right, but I do know I am doing it.

I need to know more first.

Knowing that I am thinking through my options, I do not want to jump headfirst into this. I do have time to make sure this is a real plan, not just a depression-induced set-up for future failure. I know I will have to face my depression daily, recognize what it wants to do, and make conscious decisions to keep it from taking over.

Now that I have said I have depression, depression does not have me, my focus had changed. I am working on this from a rest of my life standpoint, not just a get this over with focus. I can see that my denial strategy has never worked. It was at best a band-aid, allowing me to kick the can further down the road.

I will use the week ahead to learn more.

I will focus on both sides of this idea and the possibility that something else may be important to consider. My soft target will be a week from Monday to have gathered enough information to make an informed decision.

This already feels better than Ive got to do this specific thing, no matter what. And I am excited to see where it leads.

**Please share your comments. Anyone see something I am missing? **

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