My Concealed Depression
Depression is not my boss
Welcome
I have lied to myself about depression for all my adult life. Masking it, concealing it, never saying its name. Telling my complete story could help someone else get relief from the destructive actions depression so underhandedly inflicts. Join me as I share my day-to-day effort of living and learning about depression. My mantra – Depression is Not my Boss.
In one of the sessions I attended recently, someone said that. Their personal life’s story was one of focusing on the present, and to some extent the future, with very little time spent on the past. I thought this was a great way to live. There are so many ways of saying this, but when he talked about the view from the driver’s seat of a car, he got my attention. I’ve… Read More
“Alright, Mr. DeMille, I’m ready for my close-up.” Well, maybe not just yet. After all, I have only been blogging for four months. But thanks to readers like you, my day just got incredibly better. No Debt But Love has nominated me for the Sunshine Blogger Award. View the Nomination Here You can learn more about No Debt But Love here https://nodebtbutlove.com/about/ No Debt But Love’s aim is to help those experiencing the… Read More
I took the day off and devoted it to self-care. Ok, so my self-care includes weed eating around the fenced-in part of the property and mowing several acres on the riding mower. Today it also involved removing the netting from over the strawberry plants and weeding around the plants. And then my daughter and I went to Lowes for a terra cotta pot. My spider plant has gotten huge and is root… Read More
12 weeks ago, I would not have thought this was possible. In the first few days after getting out of the hospital, depression still had me not seeing much of anything. It was a struggle to get out of bed, to eat, to get dressed. There was a glimmer of hope that I was on a better path, but when I say glimmer, that’s being very generous. My days were filled with… Read More
I was reminded today that when I was 5 years old, I saved the family from asphyxiation. We had moved from New Jersey to Mobile Alabama in 1960. My father was an engineer and he had a chance to go to work for this new government startup called NASA. They had facilities in Mobile. So off we went. My parents found a rental home outside of Mobile. It was very rural as… Read More
“Just suck it up, grow a pair, stop acting like a girl.” These are all things I have heard hurled at myself and other guys as I was growing up. Society set certain expectations for men and women at the end of the 20th century. My formative years centered around Woodstock, Kent State, and the Vietnam War. It was also influenced by “Father Knows Best” on TV, along with Laugh-in, Hee-Haw, and… Read More
It was mentioned to be informational. It wasn’t directed at me or directly at anyone else for that matter. She was thinking about it because she was drinking from the mug, so she said it. “This mug that I just got as a present must be hand-washed, it shouldn’t go in the dishwasher.” My mind immediately jumped to “I must have done something to the mug.” Now it wasn’t said in an… Read More
Until recently, I didn’t know that superheroes are real. But now I have proof. You might pass by one and not realize the power they have within themselves. Even worse, you might have an assumption about, and possibly pre-judge their abilities before learning of their superpowers. This is sadly a common mistake many of us are guilty of. Superheroes come in all shapes and sizes. I believe one of the things that… Read More
What is the most important information I should know about Prozac? With every refill of my prescription, I receive five pages of tightly spaced information about the drug. The document starts off harmless enough with directions: Take one capsule by mouth one time daily. This is what is I read on the bottle every morning when I take it. Next is the generic name. Fluoxetine (floo OKS e teen) Hcl 20 Mg… Read More
