I promise to tell my new Doctor the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. Going into my doctor’s office and putting on my concealed depression face results in me not getting the true help I need. Depression is once again getting me to be secretive. It reminds me that no one understands me as well as it does, and I should be wary of anyone (or any medicine) that … [Read more...] about Will I be Ready for My New Psychiatrist?
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I Did Not Kill A Painted Turtle Today – A Joyful Part II
As we were walking our dog recently, the subject of painted turtles came up. We talked about when they would be coming out of the water to lay their eggs in the lower part of our property. I have a small bag full of the leathery shells I have collected that the baby turtles leave behind when they break free of their land based underground nest and head for the lake. In the … [Read more...] about I Did Not Kill A Painted Turtle Today – A Joyful Part II
Same Stuff, Just A Different Day
Why am I stuck in this loop of sameness? As I begin writing, I realize this is not the first time I have written about this. My mind has been stuck in a painful, unproductive loop before. And how to jump-start a new, more productive loop is where I am now. READ: Will everyday be the same? Last night, after getting home from work, I had a small meal. By 11 PM, I … [Read more...] about Same Stuff, Just A Different Day
I Asked My Doctor 6 Questions About My MDD Symptoms
What he told me was life changing. Getting out of bed each morning has been drama. Most days, I launch an internal dialogue with myself, which ends in my feeling guilty about staying in bed. Then at some point, a sound triggers my “fight or flight” response, and I leap out of bed. This scenario of guilt and shame for not being able to get out of bed has been going on for … [Read more...] about I Asked My Doctor 6 Questions About My MDD Symptoms
Getting Out Of Bed With Depression – 22 Things I’ve Tried
Ok, where am I going with this? Am I trying to disassociate myself from depression or am I trying to get out of bed first thing in the morning? I have been thinking, again, about why I cannot get started in the morning. Ever since November, I have struggled to begin the day. If I must get up for work, I ALWAYS do it. That’s why it’s called high-functioning … [Read more...] about Getting Out Of Bed With Depression – 22 Things I’ve Tried