Photo by David Vives on Unsplash I’m still stuck on being alone for the summer, with my depression on vacation. After being so determined to get my depression out in the open, why am I sad that it has taken a holiday? I should be doing back flips and alerting the media. Depression’s absence should be a celebration. I have been working on this for 5 years. And yet, I … [Read more...] about Summers Here, So Where Is My Depression?
Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda
I Should Be Happy, or At Least Thankful
Photo by Jacqueline Munguía on Unsplash But here I am once again just going along. Nothing too happy, nothing too sad, I am just going along. It doesn’t seem to make sense. I mean it seems like things should be more positive than when I see them. And maybe things are better, and I just haven’t caught up. I am taking 450 mg of Wellbutrin every morning. Nothing has … [Read more...] about I Should Be Happy, or At Least Thankful
My Depression Never Quits
Photo by Annie Spratt on Unsplash Even when things are going pretty well, I sense my depression hanging around. It’s not badgering me. I don’t feel my depression watching my every move. Heck, it’s not visible at all right now. But still, I know it is there, ready to jump in at a moment’s notice. I guess this is to be expected. Afterall, my depression and I go back … [Read more...] about My Depression Never Quits
Is My Depression Out on Holiday?
Photo by Sean Oulashin on Unsplash I just realized that my depression is not on the job. Is depression taking a holiday? When my Peer Advocate called for my weekly checkup today, I had to report that my depression was absent. Usually, it is on simmer in the background. It waits there ready to flare up at a moment’s notice. Now that I think about it, I haven’t seen my … [Read more...] about Is My Depression Out on Holiday?
Why Can’t I Laugh Out Loud Anymore?
Photo by Tim Mossholder on Unsplash I have asked myself “why can’t I laugh out loud anymore? The whole idea of laughing is not part of my daily routine. In fact, it is not a part of my routine at all these days. I can see that something is funny, but I am not able to laugh, to show an emotion about it. And this is true whether it is a joke being told, or a situation I am … [Read more...] about Why Can’t I Laugh Out Loud Anymore?
