Photo by Vadim Bogulov on UnsplashIs it something I can share, or is it more esoteric?Will I write about it or spend a page or more avoiding talking about "what do I want?" Sometimes I need to warm up my brain before I can open up about what I actually decided to write about. Ok, it’s most of the time. I almost always seem to ramble on about something, pulling out details in an … [Read more...] about What Do I Want?
Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda
I Talked To My Depression Today
Photo by Caroline Hernandez on UnsplashTonight, I’m not sure what I think of the part technique.In the moment, in my therapist’s office, it seemed ok. When she asked me how I felt about my depression, I was truthful and said I still had a lot of anger inside. Yes, I have learned not to spend my time, coulda, woulda, shouldaing. But I have not forgiven my depression for the way … [Read more...] about I Talked To My Depression Today
Summers Here, So Where Is My Depression?
Photo by David Vives on Unsplash I’m still stuck on being alone for the summer, with my depression on vacation.After being so determined to get my depression out in the open, why am I sad that it has taken a holiday? I should be doing back flips and alerting the media. Depression’s absence should be a celebration. I have been working on this for 5 years.And yet, I miss the … [Read more...] about Summers Here, So Where Is My Depression?
I Should Be Happy, or At Least Thankful
Photo by Jacqueline Munguía on UnsplashBut here I am once again just going along.Nothing too happy, nothing too sad, I am just going along. It doesn’t seem to make sense. I mean it seems like things should be more positive than when I see them. And maybe things are better, and I just haven’t caught up.I am taking 450 mg of Wellbutrin every morning.Nothing has changed in the … [Read more...] about I Should Be Happy, or At Least Thankful
My Depression Never Quits
Photo by Annie Spratt on Unsplash Even when things are going pretty well, I sense my depression hanging around.It’s not badgering me. I don’t feel my depression watching my every move. Heck, it’s not visible at all right now. But still, I know it is there, ready to jump in at a moment’s notice.I guess this is to be expected.Afterall, my depression and I go back almost 60 years. … [Read more...] about My Depression Never Quits
