Photo by Tim Mossholder on Unsplash I have asked myself “why can’t I laugh out loud anymore? The whole idea of laughing is not part of my daily routine. In fact, it is not a part of my routine at all these days. I can see that something is funny, but I am not able to laugh, to show an emotion about it. And this is true whether it is a joke being told, or a situation I am … [Read more...] about Why Can’t I Laugh Out Loud Anymore?
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Why Am I Letting My Depression Control My Feelings?
I saw a great poster this morning, which identifies and defines 6 common feelings. I can identify with sad; I see that a lot. Calm was one I had missed. I always thought you went from sad to happy. There was never anything in between. Or at least that is what I had always thought. In fact, there are 60 or more common emotions, feelings. Just do a Google search and you … [Read more...] about Why Am I Letting My Depression Control My Feelings?
Am I Having a Depression Remission?
Photo by Kristina Tripkovic on Unsplash Is depression remission even a thing? And what makes me think that I am not doing ok with my depression? Do I really have a lot of questions about where I am? Should I be running to my WRAP plan (wellness recovery action plan)? Is it ok that I have not returned the call from my peer advocate from yesterday? I have more questions … [Read more...] about Am I Having a Depression Remission?
What Would Make Me the Happiest?
What would I do? How would I think? What would I spend my time doing? Firstly, I need to factor in my diagnosis of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation. Figuring out how to manage it has been my #1 focus for 4 ½ years. I still learn things every day about tools that will continue to give me an edge. And in that time, I have, with help, navigated different … [Read more...] about What Would Make Me the Happiest?
Why Am I So Busy Doing Everything Except …?
I tell myself I am better than most because I do not spend hours each day watching viral cat videos. Yes, I’m the guy who is always busy. There is always a project to plan, start, or finish. I am busy at work and busy at home. I always have a list. Mostly my list is written. Many times, the list is on the back of an envelope or an old receipt that I found on my dresser. At … [Read more...] about Why Am I So Busy Doing Everything Except …?