I just left my weekly therapy appointment.As I went in, I wondered how long I have just felt OK. And how long have I been thinking about this? This must have been going on for years. And I may have made up a reason for this happening. If I did not have one, my depression would have stepped in and added its own color commentary.I first heard someone say, " It must be the … [Read more...] about STILL OK, NOT SAD, NOT MAD, JUST OK
Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda
When Do I Know What I Want?
Photo by Jason Leung on UnsplashIs it something I can share, or is it more esoteric?Am I going to write about it or am I going to spend a page or more, avoiding talking about it. Sometimes I just need to warm up my brain before I can open up about what I actually decided to write about. Ok, it’s most of the time. I almost always seem to ramble on about something, pulling out … [Read more...] about When Do I Know What I Want?
What Do I Want?
Photo by Vadim Bogulov on UnsplashIs it something I can share, or is it more esoteric?Will I write about it or spend a page or more avoiding talking about "what do I want?" Sometimes I need to warm up my brain before I can open up about what I actually decided to write about. Ok, it’s most of the time. I almost always seem to ramble on about something, pulling out details in an … [Read more...] about What Do I Want?
I Talked To My Depression Today
Photo by Caroline Hernandez on UnsplashTonight, I’m not sure what I think of the part technique.In the moment, in my therapist’s office, it seemed ok. When she asked me how I felt about my depression, I was truthful and said I still had a lot of anger inside. Yes, I have learned not to spend my time, coulda, woulda, shouldaing. But I have not forgiven my depression for the way … [Read more...] about I Talked To My Depression Today
Summers Here, So Where Is My Depression?
Photo by David Vives on Unsplash I’m still stuck on being alone for the summer, with my depression on vacation.After being so determined to get my depression out in the open, why am I sad that it has taken a holiday? I should be doing back flips and alerting the media. Depression’s absence should be a celebration. I have been working on this for 5 years.And yet, I miss the … [Read more...] about Summers Here, So Where Is My Depression?