Photo by David Vives on Unsplash I’m still stuck on being alone for the summer, with my depression on vacation.After being so determined to get my depression out in the open, why am I sad that it has taken a holiday? I should be doing back flips and alerting the media. Depression’s absence should be a celebration. I have been working on this for 5 years.And yet, I miss the … [Read more...] about Summers Here, So Where Is My Depression?
Change Triangle
Why Depression Is My Lifelong Companion
Photo by Florian Klauer on UnsplashDepression has been with me my entire life. I am drafting the story of my life facing depression head on; after only 62 years of ignoring it, of never calling it by name, hiding it from everyone including myself, and sweeping the crumbs of every episode under the rug each time it was over, as I walked away never looking back.If I had … [Read more...] about Why Depression Is My Lifelong Companion
Joy Has Been Elusive for Years, But I May Have Found It Again
Photo by Tim Mossholder on UnsplashJoy is one emotion that has been missing over the past 4 or 5 years.Not days, or weeks, but years. That’s a long time. 365 days times 4 years equals 1,465 days. Five years is that plus 365. And for much of that time, I did not even know I was not experiencing joy. I was happy if I experienced any emotion.And yes, that included the emotion of … [Read more...] about Joy Has Been Elusive for Years, But I May Have Found It Again
I See My Psychiatrist Tomorrow to Discuss the 15mg of Mirtazapine She Added
Photo by Christina Victoria Craft on Unsplash30 days ago, she added 15 mg. of mirtazapine to the 450 mg of Wellbutrin XL that I take each morning.The addition of this drug is prescribed to help me go from ok, to a balanced life where I might feel joy again. I have written much recently about how I have gotten to the ok stage but cannot seem to move into what I remember as … [Read more...] about I See My Psychiatrist Tomorrow to Discuss the 15mg of Mirtazapine She Added
Doing The Drugs – Part “Who Knows, I’ve lost track”
Mirtazapine, generic for Remeron, was added to my anti-depressant regime recently.A Google search reveals: Mirtazapine is an antidepressant used to treat major depressive disorders in adults. It is not known if mirtazapine is safe and effective for use to treat MDD in children1. It is often used in cases of depression complicated by anxiety or insomnia2. It improves … [Read more...] about Doing The Drugs – Part “Who Knows, I’ve lost track”
