UnsplashI think of my attempts at talk therapy as if I was dating someone for the first time. There is that honeymoon period where you are getting to know each other. And this part is different from therapy, for with dating, I am allowed to choose from anyone, not just people on a list.However, I suppose a list of therapists that have openings is similar to a dating app.I … [Read more...] about Talk Therapy And I Have A Rocky Relationship
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I’m Getting Ready to Tell Work That I Have Major Depressive Disorder
I originally wrote letters to my employees, boss, and the company I work for 2 ½ years ago.Talk about being chicken s&^t. While I haven’t followed through, I am still thinking that telling the world is the next logical step. That telling the world will help others. More importantly, I feel that it will help me. Finally, I have put my real name on my blog. The big picture on … [Read more...] about I’m Getting Ready to Tell Work That I Have Major Depressive Disorder
I Should Be Happy, or At Least Thankful
Photo by Jacqueline Munguía on UnsplashBut here I am once again just going along.Nothing too happy, nothing too sad, I am just going along. It doesn’t seem to make sense. I mean it seems like things should be more positive than when I see them. And maybe things are better, and I just haven’t caught up.I am taking 450 mg of Wellbutrin every morning.Nothing has changed in the … [Read more...] about I Should Be Happy, or At Least Thankful
Why Depression Is My Lifelong Companion
Photo by Florian Klauer on UnsplashDepression has been with me my entire life. I am drafting the story of my life facing depression head on; after only 62 years of ignoring it, of never calling it by name, hiding it from everyone including myself, and sweeping the crumbs of every episode under the rug each time it was over, as I walked away never looking back.If I had … [Read more...] about Why Depression Is My Lifelong Companion
What In the World?
Photo by Daniel Schludi on UnsplashBecause my mom Is 97 and has covid, I’m feeling a lot of stress.It is clear that I am not clear about what is next, or what I should be doing next. As her POA, I have been paying her bills for years. And I have developed a close relationship with the financial group that handles her investments. It is easy to know when bills are due. I … [Read more...] about What In the World?