My Concealed Depression

Archives for February 2024

I’m More Than a Plucky Saying on Pinterest ™

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Photo by Yu Wang on Unsplash I say that, but I cannot convince myself that I mean it. I could list 100’s of positive assertions, including: Heck, I have even made up one: “I have depression, depression does not have me.” But repeating these mantras day after day, situation after situation goes only so far. In the end, there must be movement, action of some sort. … [Read more...] about I’m More Than a Plucky Saying on Pinterest ™

In 5 Years, I Have Written 600 Blog Posts About My Life with Depression

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Photo by Gary Meulemans on Unsplash It has been 1,715 days since my 4 days in 5 East. That means I have written 0.35 blog posts per day for 1,715 days. That is 2.85 blog posts on average per week. Being very competitive, I feel the need to justify my efforts. The simple fact that I am still writing these blog posts means, to me, that I haven’t figured … [Read more...] about In 5 Years, I Have Written 600 Blog Posts About My Life with Depression

Is It My Depression Medicine or Am I Just Edgy Today?

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Photo by freestocks on Unsplash I know for a fact that something is going on in my body today. So, I was up about 1:30 AM this morning, and everything was fine. I went to the bathroom and climbed back into bed, Then I was up again at 5:00 AM. This is not unusual. I haven’t had a full night’s sleep in years. And getting my medication adjusted to make things more normal … [Read more...] about Is It My Depression Medicine or Am I Just Edgy Today?

Why Can’t I Laugh Out Loud Anymore?

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Photo by Tim Mossholder on Unsplash I have asked myself “why can’t I laugh out loud anymore? The whole idea of laughing is not part of my daily routine. In fact, it is not a part of my routine at all these days. I can see that something is funny, but I am not able to laugh, to show an emotion about it. And this is true whether it is a joke being told, or a situation I am … [Read more...] about Why Can’t I Laugh Out Loud Anymore?

I am Just Not Good Enough

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Photo by Nik on Unsplash Yesterday I read an article whose theme was “I am just not good enough.” This piqued my curiosity, as I have been wondering if I am just not good enough for a while.  The core of the article centered around the definition of perfectionism. It turns out that, according to the author, perfectionism isn’t about setting high, often impossible … [Read more...] about I am Just Not Good Enough