We talk about depression like it’s one thing with one simple cause. I have always thought of it that way. But the truth is, depression is rarely that simple. It’s not just “being sad” or “having a bad day.” It is constantly a part of me, and doesn’t go on vacation, as I previously assumed. Depression is a real, multi-layered condition shaped by what’s happening in your … [Read more...] about I Changed My Life With Depression — Here’s the Part No One Tells You”
Time Travel
Is the Question What Comes Next?
It feels like I know what the honest answer is. Yet I cannot bring myself to say the words. Saying it should be easy, as it is something about my future. So far, all I have is a list of things I don’t want. For one thing, I know that I don’t want to be taken advantage of. All of my life, I have said yes to others’ needs, often at the expense of myself. I am finally, after … [Read more...] about Is the Question What Comes Next?
Summers Here, So Where Is My Depression?
Photo by David Vives on Unsplash I’m still stuck on being alone for the summer, with my depression on vacation. After being so determined to get my depression out in the open, why am I sad that it has taken a holiday? I should be doing back flips and alerting the media. Depression’s absence should be a celebration. I have been working on this for 5 years. And yet, I … [Read more...] about Summers Here, So Where Is My Depression?
The First Rule of Depression Is Never Talk About Depression
From my 2022 blog post: Now I have committed myself (no pun intended) to learning everything I can about depression. I have chosen to face it, to keep it from helping me back into unhelpful thinking. Every day I am learning new things about depression and how it works on the mind and body. Read my original May 4, 2022, blog post It is June 3 of 2024. I was thinking this … [Read more...] about The First Rule of Depression Is Never Talk About Depression
I Don’t Know Why I Am Still Trying
Photo by Brett Jordan on Unsplash Making forward progress feels like it’s not a thing right now. Today, keeping my head above water is my primary goal. The process of moving forward seems labored and just outside of my grasp. This morning, I am wondering how I managed to fake it for so long. There’s no way I have really been getting things done. Any visible forward … [Read more...] about I Don’t Know Why I Am Still Trying
