IPhoto by Nick Fewings on Unsplash I was awake in the middle of the night recently, and my depression wanted to talk. It was sharing ideas with me about our future together. Depression was pleased that I was still alive. If I ended my life, depression would lose a cooperative host. And that wasn’t good for either of us. How could it keep needling at me if I wasn’t … [Read more...] about It’s Clear That My Depression Loves Me
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I’m More Than a Plucky Saying on Pinterest ™
Photo by Yu Wang on Unsplash I say that, but I cannot convince myself that I mean it. I could list 100’s of positive assertions, including: Heck, I have even made up one: “I have depression, depression does not have me.” But repeating these mantras day after day, situation after situation goes only so far. In the end, there must be movement, action of some sort. … [Read more...] about I’m More Than a Plucky Saying on Pinterest ™
Is it Cliché to Ask Where the Year Went?
Today is December 31st, and the year has basically ended. I for one should have seen it coming. Even before January 1, 2023 came, I was flying across the Atlantic Ocean on my way to Tanzania. On the way, we had a chance to explore Frankfurt, Germany. It was New Year’s Eve, and the city was in holiday mode. Everywhere we went, there were Christmas themed people and holiday … [Read more...] about Is it Cliché to Ask Where the Year Went?
Doing The Drugs – Part “Who Knows, I’ve lost track”
Mirtazapine, generic for Remeron, was added to my anti-depressant regime recently. A Google search reveals: Mirtazapine is an antidepressant used to treat major depressive disorders in adults. It is not known if mirtazapine is safe and effective for use to treat MDD in children1. It is often used in cases of depression complicated by anxiety or insomnia2. It … [Read more...] about Doing The Drugs – Part “Who Knows, I’ve lost track”
My Depression Has Me Catastrophizing Instead of Fixing My Sleep Problem
Photo by Rehina Sultanova on Unsplash I have only been using the CPAP machine for two days, but already the morning fog is lifting. It’s possible that CPAP may have helped me a few years ago. But then, the issue ended up being my medication. Once I switched from Prozac to Wellbutrin, I was able to get out of bed and meet the day. I am still so thankful for my new … [Read more...] about My Depression Has Me Catastrophizing Instead of Fixing My Sleep Problem
