My Concealed Depression

Suicide & Self-Harm

What Makes Me Choose to Live with Depression?

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Photo by Marten Bjork on Unsplash Choosing not to live with depression is, for me, choosing suicide. Because of my family history, I see that I either learn to face depression and live with it, or check out. And my one instance of contemplating checking out occurred almost 50 years ago. Since then, I have understood that I am more afraid of death than I am of living with … [Read more...] about What Makes Me Choose to Live with Depression?

Depression and I Are Spending Another Memorial Day Together

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Photo by Valentino Funghi on Unsplash The truth is, I should be thankful I am still here. Celebrating Memorial Day this year marks 5 years since I spent 4 days in 5 East. From that experience, I am still finding out new things about my depression. For instance, did you know that my depression can hold its breath for 7 minutes underwater? Well, neither did I. But it … [Read more...] about Depression and I Are Spending Another Memorial Day Together

Is Depression Getting Me Close While Keeping Me Far Away?

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Photo by USGS on Unsplash Excuse me for saying this. More than once, despite my depression, I have been on the edge of greatness. I have even stepped into the winner's circle a few times in my life. There is the warmth of that glow and the admiration of the crowd that can get a person almost giddy. And the positive endorphins go wild. Taking the gold is what I am always … [Read more...] about Is Depression Getting Me Close While Keeping Me Far Away?

Am I Having a Depression Remission?

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Photo by Kristina Tripkovic on Unsplash Is depression remission even a thing? And what makes me think that I am not doing ok with my depression? Do I really have a lot of questions about where I am? Should I be running to my WRAP plan (wellness recovery action plan)? Is it ok that I have not returned the call from my peer advocate from yesterday? I have more questions … [Read more...] about Am I Having a Depression Remission?