You show up. You perform. You smile. And because of that, no one—including you—realizes how much energy it takes just to keep going. Even though I am retired, I still spend time each day looking at my email. Often, someone is up before I am, so I am either making coffee or pouring myself a mug. While I don’t have a real calendar, I often make up a short to-do list on the … [Read more...] about The Most Dangerous Kind of Depression Doesn’t Look Like Depression at All
Suicide & Self-Harm
What Makes Me Choose to Live with Depression?
Photo by Marten Bjork on Unsplash Choosing not to live with depression is, for me, choosing suicide. Because of my family history, I see that I either learn to face depression and live with it, or check out. And my one instance of contemplating checking out occurred almost 50 years ago. Since then, I have understood that I am more afraid of death than I am of living with … [Read more...] about What Makes Me Choose to Live with Depression?
Depression and I Are Spending Another Memorial Day Together
Photo by Valentino Funghi on Unsplash The truth is, I should be thankful I am still here. Celebrating Memorial Day this year marks 5 years since I spent 4 days in 5 East. From that experience, I am still finding out new things about my depression. For instance, did you know that my depression can hold its breath for 7 minutes underwater? Well, neither did I. But it … [Read more...] about Depression and I Are Spending Another Memorial Day Together
How to Push Rock Up Hill
Photo by Tim Mossholder on Unsplash How to Push Rock Up Hill, it’s not a good thing when the best reference you can find is on Wikipedia. From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia For other uses, see Sisyphus (disambiguation). Not to be confused with Syphilis. Persephone supervising Sisyphus in the Underworld, … [Read more...] about How to Push Rock Up Hill
Is Depression Getting Me Close While Keeping Me Far Away?
Photo by USGS on Unsplash Excuse me for saying this. More than once, despite my depression, I have been on the edge of greatness. I have even stepped into the winner's circle a few times in my life. There is the warmth of that glow and the admiration of the crowd that can get a person almost giddy. And the positive endorphins go wild. Taking the gold is what I am always … [Read more...] about Is Depression Getting Me Close While Keeping Me Far Away?
