I’m not sure what to make of my current condition.
It’s possible I have something going on, health-wise. Or it may just be one of those things. I am certain that whatever it is, things could be better. And from NCIS, I’ve learned that there are no such things as coincidences. So, what is making me “fuzzy?” And why does it happen at very specific times?
I drive and get out of the car.
I feel fuzzy for a minute or two, then everything is OK. My backup GP saw me recently and listened when I said that one of the key side effects of my Blood Pressure Medication, Benicar, was the same dizziness I feel occasionally. And so, he took me off of the medication I had been on for over 20 years, Noe my BP has risen, but he looked at what I submitted to him and judged it OK.
He wanted me to try something new and report my results to my regular GP when I got my annual physical.
My regular GP prescribed a different class of BP drug, Zestril, Prinivil, and started me on the lowest possible dose. 2.5 mg is what I am taking. My GP says 10 mg is usually the lowest dose, and it could go up to 40 mg a day. I have been on it for a week, and have not had any side effects.
Of course, being out of the country, I am not recording my BP regularly.
So, I am not 100% sure of the results. That said, I do not feel entangled and am not feeling like my heart is speeding up. I will sit with the BP machine today before we leave for the thermal springs. I am looking forward to a chance to soak in thermally heated water.
While it is still windy this morning, the air is warming up.
It should be very comfortable when we get to the springs around 2 PM. My wife and I visited hot springs in Costa Rica and were very pleased with the different temperature pools that were offered. All of the heat was generated by the heat from a “dormant” volcano.
Now, I am ready to write about what I am feeling.
I feel like doo-doo. I am on a trip of a lifetime, and all I can feel is OK. Not mad, not sad, not happy, or angry, just OK. My daughter says I am displaying a forced smile in any pictures. I know she is right. I have been that way for years. My Peer Advocate recently pointed out that my medications have been prescribed by UVA teaching assistants working on their PhDs.
Their focus is rightfully on passing, and not specifically on me and my ongoing care.
For seven years, I have had one year’s focus on me, and then a new Medicine management candidate takes their place. And I have been on the same medication for 4 of those years. I do have an appointment when I get back from Panama, with a Psychiatrist from Staunton, VA.
He comes highly recommended, takes Medicare, and solved for someone else, their medication issue.
And he will be around for at least the next 15 years. I may have found someone who will focus on ME. I will keep you posted and write about my experience after my appointment.
I am sure that all of this is not what I started to write about.
Yet I am afraid to go there and write about what I really am feeling. It seems that I am not ready to open this subject. I kind of know what it is. And yet, I am not able to bring it out in the open. So, I will leave it alone for now and work on some breakfast.
