My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

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For Eight Years I Saw a Different Psychiatrist Every Year

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What finally happened when someone asked a simple question about my depression medication? My Peer Advocate, from On Our Own, has been after me for several years to speak with her doctor about my medication. For some reason, I had never really considered the idea. I would say, “yeah, yeah” when she would bring it up, but then not follow up with a phone call or a Google … [Read more...] about For Eight Years I Saw a Different Psychiatrist Every Year

Is It My Medication—or Something I’m Not Ready to Face?

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I’m not sure what to make of my current condition. It’s possible I have something going on, health-wise. Or it may just be one of those things. I am certain that whatever it is, things could be better. And from NCIS, I’ve learned that there are no such things as coincidences. So, what is making me “fuzzy?” And why does it happen at very specific times? I drive and get out … [Read more...] about Is It My Medication—or Something I’m Not Ready to Face?

Depression Cannot Keep Me from Being Thankful

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I am thankful for: The fact that I am still alive after a lifetime ( over 60 years) living with high-functioning depressionMy family as they continue to support me, love me, and enjoy my companyMy ability to make choices for I can always choose my attitude towards eventsMy dog, for the unconditional love she sharesThe four seasons, each reminding me of the … [Read more...] about Depression Cannot Keep Me from Being Thankful

I Broke My New Year’s Resolution After Only 4 Days

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Well, it was going to be my New Year’s resolution if I got around to making new year’s resolutions. For the past 6 weeks or so, I have been wondering why I was feeling so rushed. This led to my decision that I wasn’t setting aside any self-care time. Every day had become full of life’s needs, and I … [Read more...] about I Broke My New Year’s Resolution After Only 4 Days

What Will Vacation Feel Like As I Change Medication?

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I’m completely off my feed. And I have been since Sunday. It is hard to stay focused on anything other than my almost 16-month-old grandson. The trip up from Virginia included an overnight stop in New Jersey. This was a chance to visit with my son and daughter-in-law. They were warm and very hospitable. Then it was pork roll and egg for breakfast as I … [Read more...] about What Will Vacation Feel Like As I Change Medication?