Photo by Sean Oulashin on UnsplashI just realized that my depression is not on the job.Is depression taking a holiday? When my Peer Advocate called for my weekly checkup today, I had to report that my depression was absent. Usually, it is on simmer in the background. It waits there ready to flare up at a moment’s notice. Now that I think about it, I haven’t seen my depression … [Read more...] about Is My Depression Out on Holiday?
Guilt and Shame
How to Push Rock Up Hill
Photo by Tim Mossholder on UnsplashHow to Push Rock Up Hill, it’s not a good thing when the best reference you can find is on Wikipedia.From Wikipedia, the free encyclopediaFor other uses, see Sisyphus (disambiguation).Not to be confused with Syphilis.Persephone supervising Sisyphus in the Underworld, … [Read more...] about How to Push Rock Up Hill
Joy Has Been Elusive for Years, But I May Have Found It Again
Photo by Tim Mossholder on UnsplashJoy is one emotion that has been missing over the past 4 or 5 years.Not days, or weeks, but years. That’s a long time. 365 days times 4 years equals 1,465 days. Five years is that plus 365. And for much of that time, I did not even know I was not experiencing joy. I was happy if I experienced any emotion.And yes, that included the emotion of … [Read more...] about Joy Has Been Elusive for Years, But I May Have Found It Again
I See My Psychiatrist Tomorrow to Discuss the 15mg of Mirtazapine She Added
Photo by Christina Victoria Craft on Unsplash30 days ago, she added 15 mg. of mirtazapine to the 450 mg of Wellbutrin XL that I take each morning.The addition of this drug is prescribed to help me go from ok, to a balanced life where I might feel joy again. I have written much recently about how I have gotten to the ok stage but cannot seem to move into what I remember as … [Read more...] about I See My Psychiatrist Tomorrow to Discuss the 15mg of Mirtazapine She Added
Why Am I So Busy Doing Everything Except …?
I tell myself I am better than most because I do not spend hours each day watching viral cat videos.Yes, I’m the guy who is always busy. There is always a project to plan, start, or finish. I am busy at work and busy at home. I always have a list. Mostly my list is written. Many times, the list is on the back of an envelope or an old receipt that I found on my dresser. At work … [Read more...] about Why Am I So Busy Doing Everything Except …?
