[ I just sent this to my siblings, wife, children, nieces, and nephews. My goal is to update them on my relationship with my depression and alert them to my second retirement.] I began getting a paycheck before I was ten. I kind of fudged my birthday so I could deliver the Montgomery County Sentinel newspaper once a week. The newspaper said I must be ten. I was going to … [Read more...] about My Depression Wants to Know Why I Am Retiring
My Depression
I Look Fine. I’m Not. Here’s What You Don’t See.
Hidden depression is the ability to live with a constant ache that cannot be seen, but is felt. People may view you as being "fine" simply because you wake each day, work, engage in conversation, and can laugh on cue. I have gotten very, very good at looking alright. I smile, people know I can always crack a joke, and I show up and do what needs to be done. From the … [Read more...] about I Look Fine. I’m Not. Here’s What You Don’t See.
What High-Functioning (Concealed) Depression Really Looks Like
If you saw me back then, you’d never guess I was struggling. Or so I thought, anyway, that was my plan.I got up every morning, went to work, paid my bills, smiled at people, and said, “I’m fine.” I showed up for everyone else, even when I couldn’t show up for myself.But inside, I felt like I was not feeling at all. Often on the inside, I felt up against the wall, with no way … [Read more...] about What High-Functioning (Concealed) Depression Really Looks Like
10 Warning Signs You’re Secretly Struggling With Depression
For years, I told myself I was “fine, “I just needed to stay busy. I smile, joke, and always keep busy. I carry papers at work, so people think I am on a mission. But deep down, I could tell I wasn’t right. I didn’t call it depression. I just thought I was tired. Or lazy. Or too soft. For years, I would make excuses to go to bed early. This safety net was my chance to let … [Read more...] about 10 Warning Signs You’re Secretly Struggling With Depression
My 70th birthday is coming, and the hardest question isn’t about cake — it’s learning how to choose what I really want for myself.
It’s me again. I’ve been off for a few weeks, and I need to write again. I wish I didn't feel like doo-doo. I’m certain that having a severe cold is not making me feel any better. It came on about 72 hours ago. I spent Saturday traveling from the bed to the couch, and then back to the bed. There are a bunch of things on my to-do list for today. Getting my laundry done … [Read more...] about My 70th birthday is coming, and the hardest question isn’t about cake — it’s learning how to choose what I really want for myself.
