I’m not sure what to make of my current condition. It’s possible I have something going on, health-wise. Or it may just be one of those things. I am certain that whatever it is, things could be better. And from NCIS, I’ve learned that there are no such things as coincidences. So, what is making me “fuzzy?” And why does it happen at very specific times? I drive and get out … [Read more...] about Is It My Medication—or Something I’m Not Ready to Face?
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I Went to See the Panama Canal—and Avoided My Feelings Instead
We flew from Dulles Airport near Washington, DC (USA) on Sunday morning. It was a brisk 16 degrees Fahrenheit. It is now Thursday, and the air temperature just outside of Panama City, near the canal, is already 82 degrees. We are picking up my son tonight and have booked a 6-hour boat tour that includes traveling through the locks. I cannot wait! Today, we are starting … [Read more...] about I Went to See the Panama Canal—and Avoided My Feelings Instead
Retirement: What Day Three Really Looks Like (Hint: Not What I Planned)
Somehow, Day Three doesn’t seem as calm and quiet as I expected. But as I sit with it now, I can see that today was calmer—definitely calmer than Day Two. I didn’t feel the need to write a 17-item to-do list, and I didn’t wake up with that sense of urgency that I used to carry like a backpack full of rocks. I actually had less on my plate today, and that alone felt like a … [Read more...] about Retirement: What Day Three Really Looks Like (Hint: Not What I Planned)
My Depression Wants to Know Why I Am Retiring
[ I just sent this to my siblings, wife, children, nieces, and nephews. My goal is to update them on my relationship with my depression and alert them to my second retirement.] I began getting a paycheck before I was ten. I kind of fudged my birthday so I could deliver the Montgomery County Sentinel newspaper once a week. The newspaper said I must be ten. I was going to … [Read more...] about My Depression Wants to Know Why I Am Retiring
Why Was My Therapist Chuckling At What I Said?
Ok, the joke was on me. I had just stated that I was feeling funny writing about depression when I wasn’t feeling depressed. This must have caught my therapist off guard. She was chuckling to herself, but the smile on her face gave her away. It is important to know which side you are seeing. I was seeing a side of her she rarely lets out. My therapist has been a rock, and … [Read more...] about Why Was My Therapist Chuckling At What I Said?
