It wasn’t that I didn’t have an appointment. And it wasn’t for inattention on my part. Or at least it felt that way to me. I called my employer's Care network. And I answered all their questions. They wanted to know if I preferred a male or a female therapist. I explained that I have worked with both. All I want is someone who I can talk with and possibly connect … [Read more...] about Was it Depression’s Fault I Did Not Meet My New Therapist Last Night?
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What Should I Tell My New Therapist?
Should it just be the facts, or can I add how I am feeling? After all, it has been nearly 4 years since I was in 5 East. Almost 4 years since I faced my depression and said out loud, “I have depression.” Since then, I have dug into what depression is, how it operates, and how I can understand it better. I have read books and even took SMART Recovery training. All this … [Read more...] about What Should I Tell My New Therapist?
What’s Stopping Me from Telling the World I Have Depression?
In my mind, I should have said “I have depression” years ago. And while I have done so in this blog, I have shied away from a formal announcement. One would think that after 530 blog posts, my secret would be out. But the fact that it hasn’t has more to do with “it’s not always about you,” than about my relationship with depression. There are many groups to which I have … [Read more...] about What’s Stopping Me from Telling the World I Have Depression?
If you can’t love yourself, how the heck are you going to love someone else?
Quote by RuPaul Unlike RuPaul, much of the time, I don’t have a high opinion of myself. There is so much I haven’t done. My life with concealed depression has forced me to have a public face and persona. I have spent years developing a brand that shows strength, stability, and reliability. Being the go-to guy is important to me. I can solve problems and de-escalate … [Read more...] about If you can’t love yourself, how the heck are you going to love someone else?
Depression Thinks I Should Know This One
Wait, wait, don’t tell me. (Thank you PBS) I have it right on the tip of my tongue. It was clear as day just a moment ago. Now that I want to talk about it, I cannot think of what it was I want to say. How frustrating this is. I know that as soon as I move on to another topic, whatever I was thinking will pop into my head. Will it be too late then? Let’s say no it will … [Read more...] about Depression Thinks I Should Know This One