“I coulda been a contender.†That’s how I am feeling today. Concealing my depression from myself has cost me in ways I am just beginning to understand. The choices I have made, the paths taken and not taken, can be linked back to depression. Not that I am using that as an excuse. I accept and live with the decisions I … [Read more...] about Could I have been someone else?
Archives for May 2019
Memories are making me teary eyed
This week, I am finding myself choking up over memories from my younger days. This is a new phenomenon. I am not sure what is causing it. I have always looked back to old memories with a fondness. This feeling is more like finality. On my way back from last week’s workshops, my travels took me past “the lake.†We bought in … [Read more...] about Memories are making me teary eyed
Why am I sleepless again?
This whole sleeping thing has kept me up at night. It’s not clear exactly when my sleep became disrupted, but I am nowhere near close to getting a full night’s sleep. And it has been almost a year. The night goes something like this: 10 PM – head to bed and play a few games of solitaire on my I-pad.10:15 – 10:45 close laptop. Lights are already off.Fall asleep fairly … [Read more...] about Why am I sleepless again?
How do I tell people I have depression? Or should I?
I have been struggling with how to share what my life has been like for the past four weeks. There are friends, relatives, and business associates that I want to tell. My dilemma is how to tell them, how much to tell them when to tell them. Is my need to tell them a way to justify my behavior? I’m telling myself it is a noble thing to do, to alert others … [Read more...] about How do I tell people I have depression? Or should I?
Why am I labeling myself?
This is not what I do. I have made a conscious effort, day after day, week after week, month after month not to call myself names. I have used positive self-talk and steered clear of labeling myself in any way that isn’t positive and helpful. So why in the past 24 hours have I caught myself doing it? Twice. This is new and is irritating, foolish, … [Read more...] about Why am I labeling myself?
