How can I stay out of the depths of despair? How can I recognize what’s going on in my head before I become obsessed with one idea, one thought, one depression guided way of thinking? I think the first thing is to acknowledge that I have depression. “But it doesn’t have me.” I am doing that every day. I am learning everything I can about how it works and how it has gotten me … [Read more...] about How will I know depression is coming again?
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You Won’t Believe what I Wrote to Myself
“I am writing because you are enough.” This is the first line of the card I wrote to myself when I was in the hospital. I wrote this to myself over a month ago. The pastor who provided the cards mailed it four weeks later. I waited four days after getting the card before opening it. When I first took the envelope out of the mailbox, I did not even remember writing the … [Read more...] about You Won’t Believe what I Wrote to Myself
It’s so depressing. Why am I still reading it?
I was loaned a copy of “I don’t want to talk about it.” It was written by Terrence Real. I have read more than half of the book now. And I am drawn like a moth to the flame. I am getting burned, but I can’t stop reading. I feel like the book is telling me that there is a lot of pain I need to face to feel better. I'm reading that those who have never felt their own … [Read more...] about It’s so depressing. Why am I still reading it?
Why Do I Double-Check Before Swallowing?
Why do I look twice? What is it about my daily Prozac that has me checking and then checking again? First, I take the plastic prescription bottle and read it. I verify that it is the Prozac, 20 mg. I read the entire label, which gives the generic name, then it says “generic for Prozac.” Once I am sure it is the correct medicine, I open the container. It should be obvious … [Read more...] about Why Do I Double-Check Before Swallowing?
Memories are making me teary eyed
This week, I am finding myself choking up over memories from my younger days. This is a new phenomenon. I am not sure what is causing it. I have always looked back to old memories with a fondness. This feeling is more like finality. On my way back from last week’s workshops, my travels took me past “the lake.” We bought in over 30 years ago and have been going every year … [Read more...] about Memories are making me teary eyed