How can I stay out of the depths of despair? How can I recognize what’s going on in my head before I become obsessed with one idea, one thought, one depression guided way of thinking? I think the first thing is to acknowledge that I have depression. “But it doesn’t have me.†I am doing that every day. I am … [Read more...] about How will I know depression is coming again?
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Did you know I have guns?
Well, right now I don’t. What I have is an indentation in the carpet in my closet where the gun safe was. I have an empty space on my shelf in the closet where the canvas bag of ammo was. All thats left is a cloth bag with a turkey call in it and a replacement peep sight for my compound bow. But no compound bow, and no guns. The morning I walked into the … [Read more...] about Did you know I have guns?
Why Do I Double-Check Before Swallowing? 6 Year Update
Originally published May 29, 2019 It hit me the other day—I don’t double-check my pills anymore. For so long, that little ritual was part of my mornings. Shake the bottle. Look at the label. Roll the pill around. Push it onto my tongue just to be sure. And now? I just take them. No second-guessing. No hesitation. It feels almost strange not to overthink it.. But at the … [Read more...] about Why Do I Double-Check Before Swallowing? 6 Year Update
I killed a painted turtle
The riding lawnmower was over the turtle before I realized what was happening. Our property is on a lake. We discovered several years ago that turtles will leave the water and crawl 100 yards or more, through the trees and bushes, to dig a hole in our yard and bury their eggs. Last year, as I was mowing, I saw what looked like a brown plastic bowl in the grass. As I got … [Read more...] about I killed a painted turtle
How do I tell people I have depression? Or should I?
I have been struggling with how to share what my life has been like for the past four weeks. There are friends, relatives, and business associates that I want to tell. My dilemma is how to tell them, how much to tell them when to tell them. Is my need to tell them a way to justify my behavior? I’m telling myself it is a noble thing to do, to alert others … [Read more...] about How do I tell people I have depression? Or should I?
