Photo by abigail low on Unsplash In my mind, my depression was off for the summer. It had flown south, and was on a beach somewhere in the tropics, sipping a rum and coke and contemplating the waves. Spending time with me was going to wait until cooler weather set in. Until then, my depression and I had parted company. I was finally free to be depression free. Or so I … [Read more...] about I Was Fooling Myself and I Didn’t Know (Didn’t Care)
unhealthy thinking styles
It’s Hot: Is My Depression Going on Vacation?
It’s 87 degrees right now in Virginia and my depression is nowhere to be seen. I suppose I should be thankful. Both the current temperature, and my depression are not as wild as they could be. Tomorrow it is forecasted to be in the 90’s. I cannot tell you where my depression will be. But thinking back to previous summers, my depression may be on holiday. My best clue … [Read more...] about It’s Hot: Is My Depression Going on Vacation?
I Should Be Happy, or At Least Thankful
Photo by Jacqueline Munguía on Unsplash But here I am once again just going along. Nothing too happy, nothing too sad, I am just going along. It doesn’t seem to make sense. I mean it seems like things should be more positive than when I see them. And maybe things are better, and I just haven’t caught up. I am taking 450 mg of Wellbutrin every morning. Nothing has … [Read more...] about I Should Be Happy, or At Least Thankful
It’s Clear That My Depression Loves Me
IPhoto by Nick Fewings on Unsplash I was awake in the middle of the night recently, and my depression wanted to talk. It was sharing ideas with me about our future together. Depression was pleased that I was still alive. If I ended my life, depression would lose a cooperative host. And that wasn’t good for either of us. How could it keep needling at me if I wasn’t … [Read more...] about It’s Clear That My Depression Loves Me
Is My Depression Out on Holiday?
Photo by Sean Oulashin on Unsplash I just realized that my depression is not on the job. Is depression taking a holiday? When my Peer Advocate called for my weekly checkup today, I had to report that my depression was absent. Usually, it is on simmer in the background. It waits there ready to flare up at a moment’s notice. Now that I think about it, I haven’t seen my … [Read more...] about Is My Depression Out on Holiday?
