Photo by abigail low on UnsplashIn my mind, my depression was off for the summer.It had flown south, and was on a beach somewhere in the tropics, sipping a rum and coke and contemplating the waves. Spending time with me was going to wait until cooler weather set in. Until then, my depression and I had parted company. I was finally free to be depression free. Or so I … [Read more...] about I Was Fooling Myself and I Didn’t Know (Didn’t Care)
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It’s Hot: Is My Depression Going on Vacation?
It’s 87 degrees right now in Virginia and my depression is nowhere to be seen.I suppose I should be thankful. Both the current temperature, and my depression are not as wild as they could be. Tomorrow it is forecasted to be in the 90’s. I cannot tell you where my depression will be. But thinking back to previous summers, my depression may be on holiday.My best clue about what’s … [Read more...] about It’s Hot: Is My Depression Going on Vacation?
I Should Be Happy, or At Least Thankful
Photo by Jacqueline Munguía on UnsplashBut here I am once again just going along.Nothing too happy, nothing too sad, I am just going along. It doesn’t seem to make sense. I mean it seems like things should be more positive than when I see them. And maybe things are better, and I just haven’t caught up.I am taking 450 mg of Wellbutrin every morning.Nothing has changed in the … [Read more...] about I Should Be Happy, or At Least Thankful
It’s Clear That My Depression Loves Me
IPhoto by Nick Fewings on UnsplashI was awake in the middle of the night recently, and my depression wanted to talk.It was sharing ideas with me about our future together. Depression was pleased that I was still alive. If I ended my life, depression would lose a cooperative host. And that wasn’t good for either of us. How could it keep needling at me if I wasn’t here?Yet, on … [Read more...] about It’s Clear That My Depression Loves Me
Is My Depression Out on Holiday?
Photo by Sean Oulashin on UnsplashI just realized that my depression is not on the job.Is depression taking a holiday? When my Peer Advocate called for my weekly checkup today, I had to report that my depression was absent. Usually, it is on simmer in the background. It waits there ready to flare up at a moment’s notice. Now that I think about it, I haven’t seen my depression … [Read more...] about Is My Depression Out on Holiday?
