My depression is a classic textbook hopelessness. Not the passing, “oh, I will never pass this exam,” or the “why didn’t I get the job?” While I have had many similar thoughts over my lifetime, these would only last a few days. I would get over it and move on. This feeling of hopelessness, in moderation, is a normal part of life. We all have disappointments and situations we … [Read more...] about What Does Your Depression Look Like? Mine Has Three Feelings.
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That “Hard to Get Started in the Morning Feeling” is Back – Doing the Drugs Part VII
Doing the drugs, lately, I have been hoping that the "hard to get started in the morning feeling" will go away. I know when that hard to get started in the morning feeling is back, something is amiss. One or two days is not the end of the world. I had one day several weeks ago, but I know I had done quite a bit of work around the property. And the daytime temperature was … [Read more...] about That “Hard to Get Started in the Morning Feeling” is Back – Doing the Drugs Part VII
After Getting Help for Myself, I Can Now Share with Others
Asking for professional medical help was one of the hardest things I have ever done. I started writing the morning after I was released from the hospital. In 5 North, I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder, with suicidal ideation. Feeling up against the wall, seeking professional medical advice was the least hard of the three choices I felt I had. Choice #1 was to … [Read more...] about After Getting Help for Myself, I Can Now Share with Others
Learning The 3 Parts of My Change Triangle
The change triangle is becoming my go-to tool helping me to understand what I am feeling. Feelings. And the core emotions I have so fastidiously defended against. I spent 43+ years putting my defenses up so that I would not come in contact with my core emotions. Even now when I do this, the result is me using inhibitory emotions to block my true (core) emotions. The human … [Read more...] about Learning The 3 Parts of My Change Triangle
All Dressed Up for Hurricane Isaias and No Place to Go
I prepared for the worst and it never came. In fact, it seems as if I slept through the worst of it. And the worst of it was a little rain, something we desperately need. Based on yesterday’s forecast, Hurricane Isaias, now a tropical storm, was scheduled to spend much of today with us. There were to be 1 to 2 inches of rain and the threat of major power outages as the wind … [Read more...] about All Dressed Up for Hurricane Isaias and No Place to Go