Depression has been making me feel unimportant and not worth loving for decades. It has done its best to keep me from seeing my own personal worth. With unhelpful thinking, my depression has shown me how much I have screwed up. And I get to relive all these instances where I was less than perfect. So, if I didn’t catch how worthless I was the first time, depression will … [Read more...] about How Is Depression Pulling My Leg So I Won’t Think I Really Am Somebody?
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What Made Depression Almost Keep Me From Summiting Mt. Kilimanjaro?
We reached the summit in seven days, but day four almost ended my attempt. How did I think the entire trip would be rain free? What caused me to optimistically think that there would be no rain and the climb would be all monkeys and giraffes in the wild? I had looked at long-range forecasts for Tanzania, and Africa before leaving America. The website even had forecasts based … [Read more...] about What Made Depression Almost Keep Me From Summiting Mt. Kilimanjaro?
WHY DO PEOPLE WITH DEPRESSION FEEL LIKE A BURDEN?
Or worse for me, why do I feel like such a burden? And is my depression really feeding into those feelings? I recently read an article about this feeling of being a burden. Here are a few paragraphs: Many people that go through an episode of depression feel like a burden to others. Often individuals who live with depression struggle with feelings of guilt. It seems to be … [Read more...] about WHY DO PEOPLE WITH DEPRESSION FEEL LIKE A BURDEN?
Is Anxiety the Reason I Can’t Let This Go?
It’s that gnawing feeling in the pit of my stomach. The feeling that should stop when the event is over. But mine hasn’t gotten the message. A trigger comes and goes. I know I should feel anxious when the event is taking place. But after it, I should be able to relax. And that is just not happening. This morning, we returned the rental car. Because we arrived right at … [Read more...] about Is Anxiety the Reason I Can’t Let This Go?
I Meet My New Psychiatrist Next Week
Photo by Nick Fewings on Unsplash Next Wednesday, before I go to work, I have an appointment with my new medicine management psychiatrist. I am not nervous about the visit, but I am curious. It is a teaching hospital. So every year, I see a new psychiatrist. And about the time we are finally making progress, they move on, and I get a new psychiatrist. Thus, the learning … [Read more...] about I Meet My New Psychiatrist Next Week