Photo by Annie Spratt on Unsplash Even when things are going pretty well, I sense my depression hanging around. It’s not badgering me. I don’t feel my depression watching my every move. Heck, it’s not visible at all right now. But still, I know it is there, ready to jump in at a moment’s notice. I guess this is to be expected. Afterall, my depression and I go back … [Read more...] about My Depression Never Quits
Depression
Why Does Everything Still Look the Same?
I was in Northern Virgina, near Sterling 5 years ago. I had gotten a contract to teach resume writing to IT students at NVCC, Northern Virginia Community College. There I held 6 – three-hour sessions over 4 days. They have many campus locations in the northern Virginia area. Some days, I was teaching one session in the morning at a campus up north, and in the afternoon, I … [Read more...] about Why Does Everything Still Look the Same?
It’s Clear That My Depression Loves Me
IPhoto by Nick Fewings on Unsplash I was awake in the middle of the night recently, and my depression wanted to talk. It was sharing ideas with me about our future together. Depression was pleased that I was still alive. If I ended my life, depression would lose a cooperative host. And that wasn’t good for either of us. How could it keep needling at me if I wasn’t … [Read more...] about It’s Clear That My Depression Loves Me
I Don’t Know Why I Am Still Trying
Photo by Brett Jordan on Unsplash Making forward progress feels like it’s not a thing right now. Today, keeping my head above water is my primary goal. The process of moving forward seems labored and just outside of my grasp. This morning, I am wondering how I managed to fake it for so long. There’s no way I have really been getting things done. Any visible forward … [Read more...] about I Don’t Know Why I Am Still Trying
“If you get up one more time than you fall, you will make it through.” Chinese proverb
Photo by Susan Q Yin on Unsplash I was awake this morning by 5:30 AM and was downstairs before 6:30 AM. Ok, so I went to bed a little after 10 PM last night. It seemed like everyone, including my 2-week-old granddaughter, was ready for bed by then. And I just started playing Candy Crush, so I stayed awake almost an hour going from level 14 to 43. My understanding of … [Read more...] about “If you get up one more time than you fall, you will make it through.” Chinese proverb
