Photo by Valentino Funghi on Unsplash The truth is, I should be thankful I am still here. Celebrating Memorial Day this year marks 5 years since I spent 4 days in 5 East. From that experience, I am still finding out new things about my depression. For instance, did you know that my depression can hold its breath for 7 minutes underwater? Well, neither did I. But it … [Read more...] about Depression and I Are Spending Another Memorial Day Together
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My Depression Never Quits
Photo by Annie Spratt on Unsplash Even when things are going pretty well, I sense my depression hanging around. It’s not badgering me. I don’t feel my depression watching my every move. Heck, it’s not visible at all right now. But still, I know it is there, ready to jump in at a moment’s notice. I guess this is to be expected. Afterall, my depression and I go back … [Read more...] about My Depression Never Quits
It’s Clear That My Depression Loves Me
IPhoto by Nick Fewings on Unsplash I was awake in the middle of the night recently, and my depression wanted to talk. It was sharing ideas with me about our future together. Depression was pleased that I was still alive. If I ended my life, depression would lose a cooperative host. And that wasn’t good for either of us. How could it keep needling at me if I wasn’t … [Read more...] about It’s Clear That My Depression Loves Me
I Don’t Know Why I Am Still Trying
Photo by Brett Jordan on Unsplash Making forward progress feels like it’s not a thing right now. Today, keeping my head above water is my primary goal. The process of moving forward seems labored and just outside of my grasp. This morning, I am wondering how I managed to fake it for so long. There’s no way I have really been getting things done. Any visible forward … [Read more...] about I Don’t Know Why I Am Still Trying
Is My Depression Out on Holiday?
Photo by Sean Oulashin on Unsplash I just realized that my depression is not on the job. Is depression taking a holiday? When my Peer Advocate called for my weekly checkup today, I had to report that my depression was absent. Usually, it is on simmer in the background. It waits there ready to flare up at a moment’s notice. Now that I think about it, I haven’t seen my … [Read more...] about Is My Depression Out on Holiday?