depression and anxiety

My Depression Says The Holidays Are Here, So Why Am I Not Happier?

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Roxana Zerni UNSPLASHMy depression is glad that I am sad and not happier.It gets to think that it is doing its job. Sewing seeds of doubt in myself and my actions is a key part of its MO. Once my depression gets me second-guessing myself, the journey down the rabbit hole has begun. This will lead to me being up against the wall with no discernable way forward.And it doesn’t … [Read more...] about My Depression Says The Holidays Are Here, So Why Am I Not Happier?

I’m Getting Ready to Tell Work That I Have Major Depressive Disorder

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I originally wrote letters to my employees, boss, and the company I work for 2 ½ years ago.Talk about being chicken s&^t. While I haven’t followed through, I am still thinking that telling the world is the next logical step. That telling the world will help others. More importantly, I feel that it will help me. Finally, I have put my real name on my blog. The big picture on … [Read more...] about I’m Getting Ready to Tell Work That I Have Major Depressive Disorder

I Should Be Happy, or At Least Thankful

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Photo by Jacqueline Munguía on UnsplashBut here I am once again just going along.Nothing too happy, nothing too sad, I am just going along. It doesn’t seem to make sense. I mean it seems like things should be more positive than when I see them. And maybe things are better, and I just haven’t caught up.I am taking 450 mg of Wellbutrin every morning.Nothing has changed in the … [Read more...] about I Should Be Happy, or At Least Thankful

Is My Depression Out on Holiday?

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Photo by Sean Oulashin on UnsplashI just realized that my depression is not on the job.Is depression taking a holiday? When my Peer Advocate called for my weekly checkup today, I had to report that my depression was absent. Usually, it is on simmer in the background. It waits there ready to flare up at a moment’s notice. Now that I think about it, I haven’t seen my depression … [Read more...] about Is My Depression Out on Holiday?