Roxana Zerni UNSPLASHMy depression is glad that I am sad and not happier.It gets to think that it is doing its job. Sewing seeds of doubt in myself and my actions is a key part of its MO. Once my depression gets me second-guessing myself, the journey down the rabbit hole has begun. This will lead to me being up against the wall with no discernable way forward.And it doesn’t … [Read more...] about My Depression Says The Holidays Are Here, So Why Am I Not Happier?
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I’m Getting Ready to Tell Work That I Have Major Depressive Disorder
I originally wrote letters to my employees, boss, and the company I work for 2 ½ years ago.Talk about being chicken s&^t. While I haven’t followed through, I am still thinking that telling the world is the next logical step. That telling the world will help others. More importantly, I feel that it will help me. Finally, I have put my real name on my blog. The big picture on … [Read more...] about I’m Getting Ready to Tell Work That I Have Major Depressive Disorder
I Should Be Happy, or At Least Thankful
Photo by Jacqueline Munguía on UnsplashBut here I am once again just going along.Nothing too happy, nothing too sad, I am just going along. It doesn’t seem to make sense. I mean it seems like things should be more positive than when I see them. And maybe things are better, and I just haven’t caught up.I am taking 450 mg of Wellbutrin every morning.Nothing has changed in the … [Read more...] about I Should Be Happy, or At Least Thankful
Is My Depression Out on Holiday?
Photo by Sean Oulashin on UnsplashI just realized that my depression is not on the job.Is depression taking a holiday? When my Peer Advocate called for my weekly checkup today, I had to report that my depression was absent. Usually, it is on simmer in the background. It waits there ready to flare up at a moment’s notice. Now that I think about it, I haven’t seen my depression … [Read more...] about Is My Depression Out on Holiday?
How to Push Rock Up Hill
Photo by Tim Mossholder on UnsplashHow to Push Rock Up Hill, it’s not a good thing when the best reference you can find is on Wikipedia.From Wikipedia, the free encyclopediaFor other uses, see Sisyphus (disambiguation).Not to be confused with Syphilis.Persephone supervising Sisyphus in the Underworld, … [Read more...] about How to Push Rock Up Hill
