Roxana Zerni UNSPLASHMy depression is glad that I am sad and not happier.It gets to think that it is doing its job. Sewing seeds of doubt in myself and my actions is a key part of its MO. Once my depression gets me second-guessing myself, the journey down the rabbit hole has begun. This will lead to me being up against the wall with no discernable way forward.And it doesn’t … [Read more...] about My Depression Says The Holidays Are Here, So Why Am I Not Happier?
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Maybe I’m Just Focused and My Depression Doesn’t Know?
In the grand scheme of things, it will make little difference if I am focused.But to me, being focused is a step closer to happy. I am in the green zone today. I am not happy, but I am close. If I am Focused, I could be Ready, too. The green zone consists of:All these feelings are not something I can share with my depression.I know my depression is smart enough to … [Read more...] about Maybe I’m Just Focused and My Depression Doesn’t Know?
My Depression Is Better, But Where Is Happy?
When asked how I am doing, I can once again say “I’m doing good.”I know this because I am making plans again. When I was circling the drain, I could not envision a future. Heck, I was having trouble seeing the edge of the drain. And feeling up against the wall made it almost impossible to see or feel anything. Making it through the day was often the high point.When I am really … [Read more...] about My Depression Is Better, But Where Is Happy?