Roxana Zerni UNSPLASH My depression is glad that I am sad and not happier. It gets to think that it is doing its job. Sewing seeds of doubt in myself and my actions is a key part of its MO. Once my depression gets me second-guessing myself, the journey down the rabbit hole has begun. This will lead to me being up against the wall with no discernable way forward. And it … [Read more...] about My Depression Says The Holidays Are Here, So Why Am I Not Happier?
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Maybe I’m Just Focused and My Depression Doesn’t Know?
In the grand scheme of things, it will make little difference if I am focused. But to me, being focused is a step closer to happy. I am in the green zone today. I am not happy, but I am close. If I am Focused, I could be Ready, too. The green zone consists of: All these feelings are not something I can share with my depression. I know my depression is smart … [Read more...] about Maybe I’m Just Focused and My Depression Doesn’t Know?
My Depression Is Better, But Where Is Happy?
When asked how I am doing, I can once again say “I’m doing good.†I know this because I am making plans again. When I was circling the drain, I could not envision a future. Heck, I was having trouble seeing the edge of the drain. And feeling up against the wall made it almost impossible to see or feel anything. Making it … [Read more...] about My Depression Is Better, But Where Is Happy?
