My Concealed Depression

unhelpful coping statements

I’m Gaining Weight – Can I Blame My Depression?

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Photo by Total Shape on Unsplash 172.5 pounds is where I bottomed out after returning from Africa. And if I had let the scale finish this morning, it would have read 185 and something. But as soon as I saw the 185, I jumped off the scale and did not let it finish and lock in a weight. After all, if it’s not in writing, it's not official. Yet my body can tell that it’s … [Read more...] about I’m Gaining Weight – Can I Blame My Depression?

Has Depression made Me an Overachiever?

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Is depression spurring on my overachieving, or would I be an overachiever without depression? That’s what I am grappling with today. Understanding where this need to do is coming from, I am looking at all possibilities. I cannot remember a time where I didn’t feel the need to be productive. As far back as I can remember, I have always … [Read more...] about Has Depression made Me an Overachiever?

My Depression Is Sneaking Around With It’s Unhelpful Thinking

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I am not circling the drain and the abyss is not on my radar. My daily routine is not a struggle. As I go through my day, I am aware of the most unhelpful thinking that I come up with. In fact, many of the ten unhelpful thinking styles that I learned about, I have not used for months. This includes all-or-nothing thinking. This has been my go-to attitude when things felt … [Read more...] about My Depression Is Sneaking Around With It’s Unhelpful Thinking

I Want To Think I Can, But Depression Has Me Feeling I Cannot

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I don’t get it, why am I feeling so average, so run-of-the-mill? From a big picture perspective, things are going great. The job is exciting as I am getting to do a lot of teaching. I’m planning again, not just hoping to make it through the day.  My daily to-do list is getting longer, which is something I thrive on. And even as … [Read more...] about I Want To Think I Can, But Depression Has Me Feeling I Cannot

What happened to “fake it ‘til you make it?”

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I’m stuck in the doldrums again. Maybe it’s the fact that it is August and things are just hot. People are in vacation mode after missing last year due to the Pandemic. Everyone is getting cabin fever and is doing things to escape the house.  In June, we got out of town and visited family for the first time in more than a … [Read more...] about What happened to “fake it ‘til you make it?”