Photo by Jez Timms on Unsplash For me and my depression, having a bright SAD light in the winter makes sense. But over the past couple of years, my intentions are better than my reality. When I am not in front of the SAD light, I can think about how effective it was the first year I used it. But sit at my desk, in my home office, and I cannot think to turn it on. And it … [Read more...] about Should I Be Anxious About How I am Using My SAD Light?
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Time Marches On, But Am I Marching with It?
Photo by Adrian Hartanto on Unsplash I am using a lot of cliches recently. What I am trying to understand as we go into 2024, is whether I am moving in tune with the times? It is easy for me to see that this year is going to be different than last year. But it is not as easy for me to see how I will fit in. My focus, as the year dawns, is how can I retire again? I … [Read more...] about Time Marches On, But Am I Marching with It?
Can I stay Focused?
I’ve had four or five days of positiveness. I’m not sure that is a word, but it’s how I have been feeling. Even yesterday, at work, I had the feeling that everything was going to work out. What I am thinking is that I will be able to realize my plans, and live a balanced life with my depression. The four weeks leading up to our trip to Peru did not feel like that. In … [Read more...] about Can I stay Focused?
Is Being Too Busy to Write a Good Thing?
Photo by mauro mora on Unsplash It turns out that I don’t even know when the last time was that I sat down and wrote out my thoughts and feelings. I wish I had made the time as I know that my depression is in the wings, waiting for me. I could slip up and be back near the abyss based on my lack of focus. This lack of focus is different than just not deciding about what to … [Read more...] about Is Being Too Busy to Write a Good Thing?
What Would Make Me the Happiest?
What would I do? How would I think? What would I spend my time doing? Firstly, I need to factor in my diagnosis of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation. Figuring out how to manage it has been my #1 focus for 4 ½ years. I still learn things every day about tools that will continue to give me an edge. And in that time, I have, with help, navigated different … [Read more...] about What Would Make Me the Happiest?