I tried to call my doctor first, but I procrastinated, and then they were closed. Then I remembered I could get a message to my Doctor using My Charts. In our area, at least, all the doctors’ offices are going to this electronic communication system. I can see upcoming appointments, test results and even notes from my doctor’s visits. I assumed I would get a response by the … [Read more...] about Why Did I Take Two Wellbutrin? – Doing the Drugs Part VIII
What depression has cost me
Or am I depressed and just don’t recognize the reason? After my medication management appointment with my Psychiatrist, I thought things were opening up and getting better. After all, getting up in the morning is still much easier than before my medication was changed. That sluggish feeling is not with me as I start my day. I am incredibly grateful for that. But at the same … [Read more...] about How Can I Be Depressed for No Reason?
My depression is a classic textbook hopelessness. Not the passing, “oh, I will never pass this exam,” or the “why didn’t I get the job?” While I have had many similar thoughts over my lifetime, these would only last a few days. I would get over it and move on. This feeling of hopelessness, in moderation, is a normal part of life. We all have disappointments and situations we … [Read more...] about What Does Your Depression Look Like? Mine Has Three Feelings.
The change triangle is becoming my go-to tool helping me to understand what I am feeling. Feelings. And the core emotions I have so fastidiously defended against. I spent 43+ years putting my defenses up so that I would not come in contact with my core emotions. Even now when I do this, the result is me using inhibitory emotions to block my true (core) emotions. The human … [Read more...] about Learning The 3 Parts of My Change Triangle
I would be lying if I said that I wasn’t disappointed. Being one of three candidates for the position, there was not a huge amount of competition. And I felt I had the experience and the proven skills the position called for. So, to receive a call and be told someone else got the position was a bit of a letdown. But I am not circling the drain. READ: Three Things I … [Read more...] about What it Feels Like to Not Get the Job