I thought with the new year, things would change. My attitude towards getting out of bed in the morning has not been moved by the beginning of a new decade. While not quite as dramatic as going from 1999 to the year 2,000, a new decade, to me, is a chance to reevaluate my life and my attitude towards it. To that end, I have made one New Year’s resolution so far, to write … [Read more...] about Getting up is still an issue
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What’s the point of my life?
I thought I would be “cured” by now. Seven months after my hospitalization for Major Depressive Disorder, it feels like I should be on top of my game. I have medication helping me, a therapist, a psychiatrist and peer support. In September, I flew to Chicago and spent the weekend learning SMART Recovery at their 25th Annual Conference. I have ordered and have read many … [Read more...] about What’s the point of my life?
I bumped into my old self this morning
It was totally unexpected. I guess I had secretly hoped it would happen but was very guarded in my expectations. It has been five days since my Psychiatrist increased my Prozac from 20 mg to 40 mg daily. My instructions are to let him know in 3 weeks how I am feeling, sooner if there are noticeable side effects. Well, this morning I noticed a welcome side … [Read more...] about I bumped into my old self this morning
Afraid or not, life still marches forward
We are either moving forward or we are dead. There is no middle ground. Even when we feel nothing is happening, that what we are doing doesn’t matter, life is going on. My personal thoughts about my self-worth and my value, my contributions to society and the greater good, are done against this backdrop. Whether I decide I am valuable just as I am, with all my flaws … [Read more...] about Afraid or not, life still marches forward
I’m alive, that is my success today
Busy, busy, busy. I cannot stop to write. But my success is that I am alive and I am grateful for today. Sometimes celebrating the small stuff is the biggest thing you can do. What will you do with today? … [Read more...] about I’m alive, that is my success today