My Concealed Depression

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Why My Life Is Going Sideways

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Photo by Alex Gray on Unsplash It’s a strange feeling—when life isn’t falling apart, exactly, but it also isn’t moving forward. Sideways is the best word I can think of for it. I’m not plummeting into crisis, but I’m not climbing toward anything either. It’s like being stuck on a moving sidewalk that keeps looping in place—motion without direction. I look around and … [Read more...] about Why My Life Is Going Sideways

What Do I Really Want Out Of My Life – Part Two

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For those who have read Part One, you can scroll down to PART TWO I’m certain I have asked this question before. But now that I have the chance to think about it, I cannot say for sure what I want. My therapist suggested that I could notice traits in others that I like. Then, I could muse out loud if I possibly had the same habits and the same positive traits. This was … [Read more...] about What Do I Really Want Out Of My Life – Part Two

What Do I Really Want Out Of My Life?

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Photo by Christian Lue on Unsplash I’m certain I have asked this question before. But now that I have the chance to think about it, I cannot say for sure what I want. My therapist suggested that I could notice traits in others that I like. Then, I could muse out loud if I possibly had the same habits and the same positive traits. This was more in reference to things about … [Read more...] about What Do I Really Want Out Of My Life?

I Was Fooling Myself and I Didn’t Know (Didn’t Care)

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Photo by abigail low on Unsplash In my mind, my depression was off for the summer. It had flown south, and was on a beach somewhere in the tropics, sipping a rum and coke and contemplating the waves. Spending time with me was going to wait until cooler weather set in. Until then, my depression and I had parted company. I was finally free to be depression free. Or so I … [Read more...] about I Was Fooling Myself and I Didn’t Know (Didn’t Care)