Seeing others openly write about their personal struggles, I am feeling like a weakling. Their name is connected to their struggle with whatever is happening to them. I have a good friend who is sharing her thoughts about stress and anxiety. And there are all the celebrities who have come out and shared their stories about living with depression. Plus, the stories … [Read more...] about Am I Strong Enough to Publicly Acknowledge my Depression?
Perfectly Hidden Depression
The most important thing to remember about concealed depression is you will not feel much of anything. But that’s OK. Feelings get in the way and muddy the waters. Facts are easier to deal with and don’t have an agenda. Feelings and emotions can take time to sort out and slow down the process. My ability to open myself up and share feelings has been muted by my … [Read more...] about Concealed Depression is my day to day life
I just want to be better than I am now. Not great, magnificent, or even "damn fine", just better. This whole depression thing is tiring me out. Every day, I am reminded of what I have lost. The things that could have been popping up at the oddest of times, ruining the beginnings of being better. Then I’m right back to blah, blah, blah. Not overly bad, not overly … [Read more...] about Can I consistently feel better?
Concealed depression has been my life. I have racked up 43+ years of hiding my depression, even from myself. This has led me to jump through hoops and do all kinds of crazy shenanigans to keep it hidden. From ignoring it to justifying it by using an unhelpful thinking style, I have lived with depression for my entire adult life. It turns out, my way of dealing with … [Read more...] about Five Names For My Depression
This seems to be the question of the day. What do others see in me that I am not seeing in myself? Why does my mind gravitate to all the things I could a, shoulda, would a done, and dismiss or minimize the good, dare I say, great things I have accomplished? When I begin to question that belief, it does not hold up. Yet here I am sensationalizing my mistakes and minimizing … [Read more...] about Everybody wants me, but do I want myself?