My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

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I Thought Therapy Was Today: A Lesson in Anger, Loneliness, and Emotional Growth

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I went to bed after midnight and thought I was having therapy this morning. I woke up at 6 am and got up at 6:40 am. After going to the bathroom and making my bed, I went into the kitchen to make coffee. Then I took my phone and began to review last night’s emails and text messages. That’s when I realized that this is only Tuesday, and my Zoom therapy session is on … [Read more...] about I Thought Therapy Was Today: A Lesson in Anger, Loneliness, and Emotional Growth

Why I Still Need Therapy at 70—and What Happens When I Miss It

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 Since I began with my new therapist over a year ago, I have missed several weeks of therapy. The first week it happened was because of a family vacation. I must admit that I was worked up about it, but the anxiety was unfounded. The week went smoothly, and I didn’t circle the drain on the way to the abyss. In fact, it was a non-event. Now I am out of the country for … [Read more...] about Why I Still Need Therapy at 70—and What Happens When I Miss It

When the Weekly Anchor’s Gone: Navigating a Therapist-Free Week

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This will be the first Wednesday in a year that I have not met with my therapist. Regardless of the work, I am always looking forward to Wednesdays. My new therapist has really made me work, and I love it. She has gotten me to open up and consider things that I never imagined possible. She has made a connection that I just hadn’t felt before. During Covid, my … [Read more...] about When the Weekly Anchor’s Gone: Navigating a Therapist-Free Week

Why Was My Therapist Chuckling At What I Said?

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Ok, the joke was on me. I had just stated that I was feeling funny writing about depression when I wasn’t feeling depressed. This must have caught my therapist off guard. She was chuckling to herself, but the smile on her face gave her away. It is important to know which side you are seeing. I was seeing a side of her she rarely lets out. My therapist has been a rock, and … [Read more...] about Why Was My Therapist Chuckling At What I Said?