We reached the summit in seven days, but day four almost ended my attempt. How did I think the entire trip would be rain free? What caused me to optimistically think that there would be no rain and the climb would be all monkeys and giraffes in the wild? I had looked at long-range forecasts for Tanzania, and Africa before leaving America. The website even had forecasts based … [Read more...] about What Made Depression Almost Keep Me From Summiting Mt. Kilimanjaro?
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Photo by Annie Spratt on Unsplash Seeking help in April 2019 was one of the hardest things I have ever done. And yet, had I not picked choice number three that morning, I might not be writing this. As I said before that morning, I saw only three choices: End it allKeep doing the same things I had been doing and keep expecting a different resultSeek Professional medical … [Read more...] about 3 Years and 9 Months After Admitting Depression, I Can Say Merry Christmas
Photo by Martin Sanchez on Unsplash It had always seemed just a matter of time. Even with all the precautions, vaccines, boosters, masks, deep cleaning, and social distancing, the odds were still against me. Add to that my occupation, which puts me in proximity to over 2,700 people each day. If you add employees, the number is closer to 3,000 contacts in a 9-hour … [Read more...] about How Did Covid-19 Finally Catch Me?
Photo by Nick Fewings on Unsplash Next Wednesday, before I go to work, I have an appointment with my new medicine management psychiatrist. I am not nervous about the visit, but I am curious. It is a teaching hospital. So every year, I see a new psychiatrist. And about the time we are finally making progress, they move on, and I get a new psychiatrist. Thus, the learning … [Read more...] about I Meet My New Psychiatrist Next Week
Image by Clker-Free-Vector-Images from Pixabay It’s funny the stories we tell ourselves. “Fake it until you make it” has always been my motto. And I have always felt that there is more for me to do before I can say I have made it. As the head psychiatrist on 5 East asked me, “when is enough, enough?” Getting one more certification, one more set of initials after my name, … [Read more...] about I Discovered My Life with Depression is Not a Lie