Photo by Florian Klauer on Unsplash Depression has been with me my entire life. I am drafting the story of my life facing depression head on; after only 62 years of ignoring it, of never calling it by name, hiding it from everyone including myself, and sweeping the crumbs of every episode under the rug each time it was over, as I walked away never looking … [Read more...] about Why Depression Is My Lifelong Companion
SMART Recovery
In 5 Years, I Have Written 600 Blog Posts About My Life with Depression
Photo by Gary Meulemans on Unsplash It has been 1,715 days since my 4 days in 5 East. That means I have written 0.35 blog posts per day for 1,715 days. That is 2.85 blog posts on average per week. Being very competitive, I feel the need to justify my efforts. The simple fact that I am still writing these blog posts means, to me, that I haven’t figured it all out yet. But … [Read more...] about In 5 Years, I Have Written 600 Blog Posts About My Life with Depression
I am Just Not Good Enough
Photo by Nik on Unsplash Yesterday I read an article whose theme was “I am just not good enough.” This piqued my curiosity, as I have been wondering if I am just not good enough for a while. The core of the article centered around the definition of perfectionism. It turns out that, according to the author, perfectionism isn’t about setting high, often impossible … [Read more...] about I am Just Not Good Enough
Am I Having a Depression Remission?
Photo by Kristina Tripkovic on Unsplash Is depression remission even a thing? And what makes me think that I am not doing ok with my depression? Do I really have a lot of questions about where I am? Should I be running to my WRAP plan (wellness recovery action plan)? Is it ok that I have not returned the call from my peer advocate from yesterday? I have more questions … [Read more...] about Am I Having a Depression Remission?
My Depression and I Are About to Celebrate Our 4th Anniversary
Photo by Joy Memon on Unsplash Depression and I go back almost 60 years, but I have only said “I have depression” for the past four. Before that, I was all about getting the episode over so I could get back to my “regular life.” It never occurred to me that living with depression was my regular life. I was so focused on never having depression that I refused to see my … [Read more...] about My Depression and I Are About to Celebrate Our 4th Anniversary