Ok, the joke was on me.I had just stated that I was feeling funny writing about depression when I wasn’t feeling depressed. This must have caught my therapist off guard. She was chuckling to herself, but the smile on her face gave her away. It is important to know which side you are seeing. I was seeing a side of her she rarely lets out.My therapist has been a rock, and … [Read more...] about Why Was My Therapist Chuckling At What I Said?
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Has It Been Three Years Since I Was Pulled Over? – Road Rage Part 5
I don’t believe it’s fair to blame my depression for my speeding.After all, my depression is not driving the truck, I am. And while depression is putting unhelpful thinking to work, I should know better. I certainly should have known better traveling a back road after 12 AM and then passing through a work zone. When the officer came to the window he said:“Sir, did you know you … [Read more...] about Has It Been Three Years Since I Was Pulled Over? – Road Rage Part 5
I Took a Self-Care Day and I Don’t Feel Guilty
Photo by Content Pixie on UnsplashThe whole idea of being outside for a self-care day was exciting.And then to get to work on outdoor projects, was for me, the best self-care imaginable. As the day unfolded, I expected that I would think going outside and working on things that needed doing would create a conflict for me.After all, I had indoor projects that needed attention, … [Read more...] about I Took a Self-Care Day and I Don’t Feel Guilty
Is My Depression Keeping Me from The Finish Line?
Or as I am surmising, there is no finish line.But for certain activities, or events, there is a conclusion. Then why is it I feel as if it is never ending, and I am always one step from completing the challenge? Days turn into nights. The day ends and the night begins. This is very basic stuff.So why am I having trouble visualizing me crossing the finish line for my own … [Read more...] about Is My Depression Keeping Me from The Finish Line?
I’m Feeling Embarrassed and Guilty For Not Being a Better Patient
I know they are only trying to help.And I want to be helped. Or so I say. But is that true? Am I feeling so guilty and embarrassed about talking to someone about my depression that I am pushing away those who want to help? I did that with two therapists, and now I am close to pushing away my peer advocate.They are professionals who are in my life to help me learn to help … [Read more...] about I’m Feeling Embarrassed and Guilty For Not Being a Better Patient