My Concealed Depression

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I Went to See the Panama Canal—and Avoided My Feelings Instead

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We flew from Dulles Airport near Washington, DC (USA) on Sunday morning. It was a brisk 16 degrees Fahrenheit. It is now Thursday, and the air temperature just outside of Panama City, near the canal, is already 82 degrees. We are picking up my son tonight and have booked a 6-hour boat tour that includes traveling through the locks. I cannot wait! Today, we are starting … [Read more...] about I Went to See the Panama Canal—and Avoided My Feelings Instead

Maybe I’m Just Focused and My Depression Doesn’t Know?

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In the grand scheme of things, it will make little difference if I am focused. But to me, being focused is a step closer to happy. I am in the green zone today. I am not happy, but I am close. If I am Focused, I could be Ready, too.  The green zone consists of: All these feelings are not something I can share with my depression. I know my depression is smart … [Read more...] about Maybe I’m Just Focused and My Depression Doesn’t Know?

Why Am I Letting My Depression Control My Feelings?

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I saw a great poster this morning, which identifies and defines 6 common feelings. I can identify with sad; I see that a lot. Calm was one I had missed. I always thought you went from sad to happy. There was never anything in between. Or at least that is what I had always thought. In fact, there are 60 or more common emotions, feelings. Just do a Google search and you … [Read more...] about Why Am I Letting My Depression Control My Feelings?

Why Am I Thinking “What Was I Thinking Anyway?”

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Is it true that by thinking it so, I can be anyone I want to be? Or is it that I can be any way I want to be? Or is it that I can think anyway I want to think? So many choices and all have their merits and drawbacks. I suppose that being anyone I want to be could imply that I am thinking a certain way. Having a specific attitude would create a certain look, feel, and … [Read more...] about Why Am I Thinking “What Was I Thinking Anyway?”