Photo by Sara Kurfeß on Unsplash Who knew staying focused would be so difficult. It is Sunday morning, shortly after 8 AM. I just spent close to 45 minutes scrolling through the internet on my phone. Up before 8AM, I had planned to do some writing before everyone else got up for the day. That didn’t work out the way I thought it would. And I seem to get suckered … [Read more...] about Even My Depression Tells Me I Should Be Paying Attention
It Snowed Last Night, And My Depression Is Letting Me Write About It
Photo by Ant Rozetsky on Unsplash The snow was heavy, intense, and brief. In less than an hour, it dropped an inch, which piled up mostly on parked cars. After I looked out once, I decided to look again before going to bed. The snow had already stopped. I’m not sure when the stars came out, but the morning dawned clear and crisp. It was tolerable outdoors until the … [Read more...] about It Snowed Last Night, And My Depression Is Letting Me Write About It
Maybe I’m Just Focused and My Depression Doesn’t Know?
In the grand scheme of things, it will make little difference if I am focused. But to me, being focused is a step closer to happy. I am in the green zone today. I am not happy, but I am close. If I am Focused, I could be Ready, too. The green zone consists of: All these feelings are not something I can share with my depression. I know my depression is smart … [Read more...] about Maybe I’m Just Focused and My Depression Doesn’t Know?
Why Am I Letting My Depression Control My Feelings?
I saw a great poster this morning, which identifies and defines 6 common feelings. I can identify with sad; I see that a lot. Calm was one I had missed. I always thought you went from sad to happy. There was never anything in between. Or at least that is what I had always thought. In fact, there are 60 or more common emotions, feelings. Just do a Google search and you … [Read more...] about Why Am I Letting My Depression Control My Feelings?
Here We Go Again, Is My Depression Ready?
Photo by Amer Mughawish on Unsplash Lately, it seems like I am either gearing up for my depression to take over or I am coming down from my depression. I am all in or shrinking away. It seems like I am giving in to my depression, and yet I am going forward. Then I am catching myself in an unhelpful thinking style, just as I am trying to be better than my … [Read more...] about Here We Go Again, Is My Depression Ready?