Photo by USGS on Unsplash Excuse me for saying this. More than once, despite my depression, I have been on the edge of greatness. I have even stepped into the winner's circle a few times in my life. There is the warmth of that glow and the admiration of the crowd that can get a person almost giddy. And the positive endorphins go wild. Taking the gold is what I am always … [Read more...] about Is Depression Getting Me Close While Keeping Me Far Away?
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Should I Be Anxious About How I am Using My SAD Light?
Photo by Jez Timms on Unsplash For me and my depression, having a bright SAD light in the winter makes sense. But over the past couple of years, my intentions are better than my reality. When I am not in front of the SAD light, I can think about how effective it was the first year I used it. But sit at my desk, in my home office, and I cannot think to turn it on. And it … [Read more...] about Should I Be Anxious About How I am Using My SAD Light?
Doing The Drugs – Part “Who Knows, I’ve lost track”
Mirtazapine, generic for Remeron, was added to my anti-depressant regime recently. A Google search reveals: Mirtazapine is an antidepressant used to treat major depressive disorders in adults. It is not known if mirtazapine is safe and effective for use to treat MDD in children1. It is often used in cases of depression complicated by anxiety or insomnia2. It … [Read more...] about Doing The Drugs – Part “Who Knows, I’ve lost track”
My Depression and I Are About to Celebrate Our 4th Anniversary
Photo by Joy Memon on Unsplash Depression and I go back almost 60 years, but I have only said “I have depression” for the past four. Before that, I was all about getting the episode over so I could get back to my “regular life.” It never occurred to me that living with depression was my regular life. I was so focused on never having depression that I refused to see my … [Read more...] about My Depression and I Are About to Celebrate Our 4th Anniversary
Why Must My Depression Decide What I Really Want or Need?
Photo by Alvaro Reyes on Unsplash If I think I want or need something, shouldn’t that be enough? Yet here I am negotiating with myself over what I want. Even after a lifetime of making my own choices, I am stuck between my ideas and depression. Now it is possible that my depression has allowed me a few “wins.” You know, just enough to keep me in the game. My … [Read more...] about Why Must My Depression Decide What I Really Want or Need?
