This seems to be the question of the day. What do others see in me that I am not seeing in myself? Why does my mind gravitate to all the things I could a, shoulda, would a done, and dismiss or minimize the good, dare I say, great things I have accomplished? When I begin to question that belief, it does not hold up. Yet here I am sensationalizing my mistakes and minimizing … [Read more...] about Everybody wants me, but do I want myself?
SMART - Self Management And Recovery Training
What a week, and it’s only Tuesday
I know I should be thankful. I am alive, I am in good health, and my depression is not pushing me up against the wall. But boy do I feel rushed. Or maybe it’s a sense of urgency to get things done. It could be I am making a big deal out of what I have to do, and am making it bigger and therefore much more important than it needs to be (You know, the … [Read more...] about What a week, and it’s only Tuesday
When will the fun start?
I know I should be happy to be alive. Just getting out of bed each morning is an accomplishment. When you think about how life manifests itself, most life just is. Look at lichens and moss. They have hung around for billions of years in pretty much the same state as we see them today. Now if you try to clean moss off something, it is hard as hell to do. And most times, … [Read more...] about When will the fun start?
Testing 1,2,3. Checking in to see if I am OK
Sometimes, I just need to check in with myself. Well, ever since I acknowledged that I have had depression for the past 43 years, I have felt the need to check in with myself, to see what is going on. My goal is to keep depression out in the open, where I can keep an eye on it. Doing this makes depression very uncomfortable, which is comforting to me. When I … [Read more...] about Testing 1,2,3. Checking in to see if I am OK
Where is the Proof That “I Am Not Enough?”
Why do I feel "I am NOT enough?" All I need is one more certification and then I can really be effective in my side business. Once I achieve my goal of going to the gym 5 times a week, then life will be fine. When I have X number of dollars a month coming in, then everything will be great. All I need is a title, then I am somebody. Sitting on the front porch, drinking … [Read more...] about Where is the Proof That “I Am Not Enough?”
