My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

WRAP (Wellness Recovery Action Plan)

Why Is Depression Having Me Think the S-Word Again?

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It has been months since it I've had a sucicidal thought. And while I know that I am not circling the drain, it is still a bit unnerving to have a suicidal thought flash in my head. Things have really been going well. I am healthy and am finally beginning to shed some of my Covid pounds. There have been many positive occasions in the past few months. A wedding, a first … [Read more...] about Why Is Depression Having Me Think the S-Word Again?

Is This What Getting to Know you Feels Like? Part II

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I’m backsliding. Where I once wanted to know what someone else was thinking, now I am back to tell them what I want to say. OK, so this is not an every time thing, but as I re-read my post from September 18, 2019, I can see I am missing something. READ: Is This What Getting To Know You Feels Like That day, when I shared time with two people, I connected in a very concrete … [Read more...] about Is This What Getting to Know you Feels Like? Part II

Blog Post #400 – Why My Depression’s Aftermath Never Ends

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At least that is how it feels today. Today I had a 3-month update with my psychiatrist who is handling my depression medicine. When asked how I was doing, I could confidently say, “I am doing very well.†And I mean it. We agreed I would stay on 300 grams of Wellbutrin XL and that I would see her in 4 months this time. I left feeling … [Read more...] about Blog Post #400 – Why My Depression’s Aftermath Never Ends