My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

concealed depression

101 ideal activities for my new life with depression

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As I make progress and hash out some of the underlying issues that have caused my depression to intensify at different times in my life, I am beginning to see the value of visualizing my new future. I asked for professional medical attention 5 months ago because I have lost my focus. I could NOT see any way forward. I was up against the wall and could not see the … [Read more...] about 101 ideal activities for my new life with depression

Why Did I Think that? I Thought I Was Getting Better.

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Why do I suddenly feel the need to explain myself? I am almost five months out from my hospital stay for depression.  That is almost five months of living with depression, of saying the word depression out loud, and keeping depression out in the open where I can see it. As I wrote the sentence about being out of the hospital for almost five months, I suddenly felt I … [Read more...] about Why Did I Think that? I Thought I Was Getting Better.

I cannot get it back

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I am so angry this morning. I cannot believe some of the decisions I have made in the past 43 years. It is infuriating to think that I have thrown away different opportunities that would have made significant changes in my life. My plan as I write this is to be mad at depression for the decisions I made along the way. But I was the one who took the action or failed … [Read more...] about I cannot get it back