My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

concealed depression

Another sleepless night

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Which leads to a dull, listless, ho-hum day. Not sleeping is still a problem. I have tried different remedies without success. Melatonin, going to bed at the same time, dimming the lights in the bedroom. You can see from my last sleep posts, nothing has changed. https://myconcealeddepression.com/category/sleep-issues/ I have not gone the drug route yet. At my follow up … [Read more...] about Another sleepless night

Am I ready to radically accept depression?

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Radical acceptance means looking at yourself and the situation and seeing it as it really is. My goal with acknowledging depression is to not let it boss me around anymore. I am working on learning coping skills and avoiding unhelpful thinking styles. In the past few weeks, I have had small challenges that depression has thrown my way. Depression is testing me to see if I am … [Read more...] about Am I ready to radically accept depression?

Am I Going Too Fast?

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Several people now have mentioned I should be slowing down. Is this what recovering from depression is about? Taking it easy? Making sure I have lots of self-care built into my day? Being aware of my automatic thoughts and slowing down my thinking so I do not make impulsive decisions? That seems like a lot to do. Slowing down is time consuming. Now I am not dismissing … [Read more...] about Am I Going Too Fast?

You won’t believe where I have been

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I took my time and read all 37 of my blog posts, back to day one when I came home from the hospital. What a journey already. I sound so bad, so sad, so out of it, on day one. And then I look at my recent writings and see how far I have come. This is encouraging. But it is not without setbacks. There have been days where I wondered if I would ever feel better. Days, … [Read more...] about You won’t believe where I have been