“I am writing because you are enough.†This is the first line of the card I wrote to myself when I was in the hospital. I wrote this to myself over a month ago. The pastor who provided the cards mailed it four weeks later. I waited four days after getting the card before opening it. When I first took the envelope out of the mailbox, I did … [Read more...] about You Won’t Believe what I Wrote to Myself
depression treatment
It’s so depressing. Why am I still reading it?
I was loaned a copy of “I don’t want to talk about it.†It was written by Terrence Real. I have read more than half of the book now. And I am drawn like a moth to the flame.  I am getting burned, but I can’t stop reading. I feel like the book is telling me that there is a lot of pain I need to … [Read more...] about It’s so depressing. Why am I still reading it?
Did you know I have guns?
Well, right now I don’t. What I have is an indentation in the carpet in my closet where the gun safe was. I have an empty space on my shelf in the closet where the canvas bag of ammo was. All thats left is a cloth bag with a turkey call in it and a replacement peep sight for my compound bow. But no compound bow, and no guns. The morning I walked into the … [Read more...] about Did you know I have guns?
Why Do I Double-Check Before Swallowing? 6 Year Update
Originally published May 29, 2019 It hit me the other day—I don’t double-check my pills anymore. For so long, that little ritual was part of my mornings. Shake the bottle. Look at the label. Roll the pill around. Push it onto my tongue just to be sure. And now? I just take them. No second-guessing. No hesitation. It feels almost strange not to overthink it.. But at the … [Read more...] about Why Do I Double-Check Before Swallowing? 6 Year Update
Why Can’t I Open This Letter?
It came two days ago. And I have still not opened it. When I took the letter out of the mailbox, the handwriting looked familiar. After that, I noticed no return address. I was thinking, what is this all about? Did I fill out a rebate form or something? Why does this look so familiar? I’m sitting in the cab of the truck, with the window rolled down. I am at the same … [Read more...] about Why Can’t I Open This Letter?
