My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

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Everybody Expects Something of Me, Even the Birds

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If I sit on the porch in the morning and don’t put the bird feeders out right away, the birds land on the empty frame and stare at me, waiting to be fed. Now I understand that I am projecting emotions for them when I tell you they are looking at me and saying, “put the feeders out already.†The birds have been coming to these … [Read more...] about Everybody Expects Something of Me, Even the Birds

Losing My Pandemic Pounds is Not Easy

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For several weeks now, my scale has hovered around 198 lbs. This is 14 lb.  above my February weight, and 20+ pounds above my ideal weight. I tell myself that I will easily lose weight when I focus on this. But that has not gotten the pounds off. In fact, several weeks ago I was weighing in at 194.4 lbs. So my weight is only climbing, not receding. I can feel … [Read more...] about Losing My Pandemic Pounds is Not Easy

Guess What I Wrote Down?

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It has been months since I opened my WRAP® PLAN workbook. There have been so many things competing for my time, that I let my own needs, my personal self-care slip to the side. I know there will be good days and days of inactivity. But practicing self-care has been an important part of my recovery. It is important that I remind myself about putting on my own … [Read more...] about Guess What I Wrote Down?