My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

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What happened to “fake it ‘til you make it?”

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I’m stuck in the doldrums again. Maybe it’s the fact that it is August and things are just hot. People are in vacation mode after missing last year due to the Pandemic. Everyone is getting cabin fever and is doing things to escape the house.  In June, we got out of town and visited family for the first time in more than a … [Read more...] about What happened to “fake it ‘til you make it?”

Why Is Depression Having Me Think the S-Word Again?

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It has been months since it I've had a sucicidal thought. And while I know that I am not circling the drain, it is still a bit unnerving to have a suicidal thought flash in my head. Things have really been going well. I am healthy and am finally beginning to shed some of my Covid pounds. There have been many positive occasions in the past few months. A wedding, a first … [Read more...] about Why Is Depression Having Me Think the S-Word Again?

Blog Post #400 – Why My Depression’s Aftermath Never Ends

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At least that is how it feels today. Today I had a 3-month update with my psychiatrist who is handling my depression medicine. When asked how I was doing, I could confidently say, “I am doing very well.†And I mean it. We agreed I would stay on 300 grams of Wellbutrin XL and that I would see her in 4 months this time. I left feeling … [Read more...] about Blog Post #400 – Why My Depression’s Aftermath Never Ends