Keeping depression out in the open requires constant attention. Ignoring it, or worse, assuming I am “over it,” has dire consequences. As I learn to live with depression, I am learning more and more about how it works. I am learning how secretive it wants to be, and how tempting it can be to follow its ideas. Understanding this has helped me see that depression isn’t only … [Read more...] about You Will Never Guess the New Name I Learned For My Depression.
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Why didn’t I know it’s a compass for living?
It’s easy to blame others. It’s easy for me to be defensive when someone I love questions my answer. My mind is often three to five steps ahead before the person even gets the entire sentence out of their mouth. I am time traveling and living in the future. It is a competition to get to the correct answer first. I have already mentioned many times that I am … [Read more...] about Why didn’t I know it’s a compass for living?
I Didn’t Do It. So Why Do I Feel Guilty?
It was mentioned to be informational. It wasn’t directed at me or directly at anyone else for that matter. She was thinking about it because she was drinking from the mug, so she said it. “This mug that I just got as a present must be hand-washed, it shouldn’t go in the dishwasher.” My mind immediately jumped to “I must have done something to the mug.” Now it wasn’t said in an … [Read more...] about I Didn’t Do It. So Why Do I Feel Guilty?